A Case Of Too Much Missing You

2012-01-29T21:09:00.001+08:00

Am I over doing? Am I blinded?

I hope this doesn't become a habit. I want to make it work out no matter what.

I always pray that the search is over for me. And I hope it really is.

2011-08-18T19:41:00.002+08:00

Does anyone still blog nowadays? Everywhere seems so quiet. And I also realise my last post was in June. Should I just leave it as it is?

The world is moving at such a fast pace, we hardly get to catch up with one another. Even if we do, it is really once in a blue moon. I enjoy the company of chilling out with people. Though we may not talk, what matters to me is the physical being of us there together.

These memories are always there with you when the going gets tough. You know you have friends who will stand by your side no matter what happens. I really wish to just stay in these moments forever. Having the love and trust of everyone around you. Supporting one another like how families do.

There is also one thing I have been searching for, my calling. What am I called to do? I can't seem to answer that question. People around me has found their passion, their likings or put it bluntly, hobbies? Not in arts, not in sciences, not in anything which i'm going through now. I know nuts about myself. How can I find the right path?

Just study? I'm neither interested or excited over the things i'm doing now. Will it waste 3 years of my time just like that?

Emo post? Not really. I just decided to open blogger and type the first thing that comes to my mind. And here you are, my latest post.

2011-06-17T13:02:00.002+08:00

Life as a year 3 aeronautical student can't be worst than this. Projects after projects, assignments after assignments. It is like never ending workload thrown onto us as if we are machines.

Just for the first term, there are MORE than 4 assignments plus reports to complete, almost all by the week after MST. So how are we going to do it? Burn 3 weeks of holidays, going back to school almost every other day, just to meet the bloody dateline. And please don't forget, MST is the first week right after holidays, meaning studies on top of all the shit. What type of a stupid system is this? SP students do not need rest?

Talking about MST, the notes/lecture slides does not give shit information at all. Practically useless for studying. Then why in the first place it was given to us? Don't even have past years' paper to refer to, no sample papers and don't even know how are we tested. MCQ? MAQ? Short-answer? Essay?

This is worst than the life of an animal. At least the animals only have to worry about getting food. What about us? On top of all the family stresses we are going through, school work comes in. Many relationships we got to handle, problems popping up everywhere.

I don't know if someone came up with this before but I got this in my head, "Too much of something good may not be a good thing."

2011-04-20T18:32:00.002+08:00

2011-04-20T18:13:00.002+08:00

It is good to be back. Lots of memories gained from the 6 weeks and lots of gossips we have created but nevertheless, we all enjoyed ourselves altogether. Haha.

Part of me actually misses the time we spent there. Every night slacking at the corridor, making guests from other rooms complain, talking all the cock stuff, having all our meals together and not forgetting our karaoke session after every lunch. Haha. These are really the many other memories I will remember other than the academic lessons from P&W.

Money spent there was crazy. Intended to only spent the S$600 I changed but in the end, I changed another S$300 there which brings my totally expenditure to $900 and this does not include the initial payment of S$2.8k for everything else. Well, what else can I say, quality comes with a huge price.

Just to say sorry to everyone I know, I didn't buy anything back for anyone. There wasn't anything I saw worth getting and I was also partially on a tight budget. A big SORRY to people expecting gifts from me.

It is now back to school for 3 days already. Still trying to get used to a lot of stuff here. Weather is crazy comparing to back there. I feel so sleepy every time i'm in class. I guess it will take me some time but how long, it is going to be a question mark.

I believe many things had happened during my absence of 6 weeks. I promise to catch up with all my friends as soon as I can. This week is going to be a long week as it is Holy Week with the Tritium going on this coming weekends.

2011-04-12T06:30:00.002+08:00

I'm already in my last few days here in China. A part of my can't bear to leave this place but there is another part of me which misses home. Last 4 days of the trip, all the last minute stuff to prepare for and do. Even with my overspending on my budget, I still haven't got all my stuff yet. So many things to get and yet so little time/money is left. LOL.

I'm in lost for words now, don't know what to type to continue. I shall stop here and see this blog back again in Singapore. The countdown is killing me.

2011-03-26T08:40:00.000+08:00

2011-03-26T08:24:00.002+08:00

Last night was one hell of a night. Went out for a short trip for dinner and a little bit of drinking at a bar. Most of us were holding ourselves quite well when we were coming back. But after the curfew check, that's when all the shit starts. Drinking till they were high, which isn't cool here since this is a school trip. It was to the extend of not being able to walk properly back to their rooms. Bad experience. If out LO finds out, I don't know what will happen to us.

Drinking isn't a problem here, since alcohol is damn cheap but knowing your limits is another issue. I know you all are not drunk, just a little on the high side but still it isn't very right to be like this especially if there were girls involve. It is going to be very messy if stuff goes out of hand. That's what i'm worried about.

Looks like I got to change my sleeping habit for the next 3 weeks to come. I hope people don't regret their actions. Exactly 3 more weeks to go, i'm actually missing home.

2011-03-17T21:08:00.002+08:00

2011-03-17T20:57:00.002+08:00

Day 11 in China, already gotten used to almost everything here. But it is just the 11th day and i'm missing home already. Not that i'm homesick but it is just that the life here is boring. I don't know what to do with my weekday evenings and weekends. Shopping isn't really my cup of tea, so you can strike out shopping from my list.

Seeing each other for a few hours a day is fun but every single day for 6 weeks, this is where you learn to tolerate. I'm actually quite fed-up with things but I cannot blow it up. We still have 30 days together. It is going to be bad if something really happens. Well, I just got to suck everything up. I'm sure everybody got disagreements with each other, even against me. I just don't wish for any blow up and try to enjoy the remaining of my time here.

Just a note, food here is just super unhealthy. Oily, salty, sweet, everything is just to the extreme. The breakfast in the hotel is getting boring too, i'm eating practically everything over and over again everyday. There is only minimal change in their menu. The most only 2 dishes? (out of the at least 30, or maybe even a lot lesser)

I'm really can't wait for this 30 days to pass. 16th April, i'm looking forward!

2011-02-24T09:17:00.001+08:00

2011-02-24T09:04:00.002+08:00

Examination period is the time i'm most stress up in the academic year. When you don't study throughout your whole term/semester and in this short time, cramp every damn thing into your small brain, that's where exhaustion comes in.

1 paper down, 3 more to go.

For Probability & Statistics paper on Tuesday, the few of us were studying like mad through the weekends. From Saturday to Monday, we were almost studying full day in school. And mind you, a lot of us stayed in the East and the school was almost to the West. This is really the time when you see us going crazy. People going home and almost using facial wash to brush their teeth. Imagine how bad it has hit us.

In the end, it only paid off half of the paper. Weightage was 50% section A and 50% section B. The first section was relatively easy for us and we were very surprise too. But when it came to section B, a lot of us didn't even have the time to read all the questions, let alone attempt to do it. I'm seriously just praying for a pass. I just don't want to waste my $400.

Next week will come the papers for all my core modules. Modules which classes I don't listen to, or more likely sleep in. What can I say, nothing? Just leave it to fate. Got to start studying for them and not procrastinate any longer.

Oh, and did I mention i'm flying off next week? It is really fast, just a week away and I will be in Beijing. Looking forward to it, spending all the crazy times with my classmates. But I will miss Singapore too, 6 weeks!

2011-02-04T22:24:00.001+08:00

2011-02-04T22:05:00.002+08:00

It is Chinese New Year already. How fast time flies. When I was just counting down to this holiday, half of it is already over. And the worst thing is, nothing has been done for school work. Examinations are in 2 weeks. Well done Bryan.

Nowadays, CNY has become a very routine thing. Going to all the 'grand' generation homes and thats all. Family visiting was cleared in the first day. Loving this, having more time to enjoy for the next few days. But well, as visiting decreases, financial intake also decreases. What to do, we are no longer the young child where we follows everywhere and people says we are cute while pinching our cheeks (though I don't fancy that age too). All wells~~

I really don't know how long I can hold on. Actually, I don't even know what am I holding on to also. Making a decision now is not as easy as before. There are so many factors to consider and most of the time, I don't know what are the factors to be considered also. Everybody see things differently, but people's expectations are also a great pressure on the decisions made.

2011-01-24T23:45:00.001+08:00

2011-01-24T23:13:00.002+08:00

It is really hard to part with people, especially someone whom you watch them grow. From the young girl who came in and didn't really knew how to express herself, to a fine young lady whom has now chosen a new path in her life. But we got to accept and move on. Everybody has to, at some point, writes a new chapter in their life and here we are, playing a part in that.

We are all truly blessed to have all our friends with us. Wherever they are, we all know the friendship we share will never break apart.

So to you, wishing you all the best in your future endeavors and never forget that we will always be here for you though we are on different continents.

Stay strong, my young friend.

2011-01-19T18:58:00.000+08:00

2011-01-19T16:30:00.004+08:00

Had another dream last night. I won't call it exactly bad, but it is just something which I do not want to accept. I don't know how am I suppose to react towards it, just so weird. Up till now, I still cannot get over it. Very bad.

Anyway, i'm blogging from school and from my friend's laptop. Just had my retest for Probability and Statistics paper. I'm just praying for a pass, since it is only capped at 50%. I didn't manage to finish the paper cause I don't know how to do one for the questions. I just did the rest and came out. So here I am, not prepared for anything.

I'm still learning to accept reality. There are some things which you can only envy people having and on your part, try to work towards it. But then again, it is always easier said than done.

2011-01-18T09:08:00.001+08:00

Had a bad dream again. This time round was throughout the night. I thought waking up from it and then going back to sleep again will lead to another dream but instead, it continued from where I left of. How bad can that be? I felt really scared. Everything was just dark and cold.

2011-01-17T07:41:00.001+08:00

2011-01-17T07:34:00.002+08:00

Bad dream. Everything seems so real. Driving on the road, losing patrol and my brakes. How bad can it be? Nothing is working. I'm just glad that it is all a dream that I can wake up from.

Not everything can be woken up from. It is the start of another hell week. Assignments and tutorials which are left untouched. This is a dream where no matter how hard I try to pinched myself to wake up from, it will never work. I really hate this dream but there is always 2 sides to everything. The loving side is, I have my family and friends with me.

"Dreams are my reality, a wondrous world where I like to be"

2011-01-11T21:36:00.000+08:00

2011-01-11T21:22:00.002+08:00

These few days has been very tiring. And I would expect many more days to come. Not because of school work but because i'm helping my father work on top of all my school stuff. Finally finished the first batch of boards today but will be delivering them the next few days which I won't be able to help.

Didn't go to school today. I don't think any person in the right mind will just go to school from 4pm to 5pm just to attend a lecture. Waste my travelling time of 2 hours just for 1 hour of lecture? Nah. I rather just throw away my attendance. No big deal.

I finally finished my Catia assignment last night. Last week was doing all the stuff on my own with the help of the pro people in class. Then yesterday, I was too lazy to draw the extra part and just copy and pasted my classmate's work. Haha. This is called the efficient way of doing work. One person just have to do, then we will share around. :P

People come and go, we must learn to accept it. But this is how it is always said. Putting this into action is not an easy task. How are we going to accept reality?

2011-01-09T21:57:00.001+08:00

2011-01-09T21:44:00.004+08:00

Failed to reach earlier this morning. Woke up at 6.20am but still ended up in church at 7am. I need to get the habit of packing my stuff the day before. Was late because I was looking for my scores.

These few days has been very tiring. Helping my father do work and that's on top of all my own activities. Haven't really took my afternoon nap for some time. :P I guess this is also because school has started and my timetable is back to shit again.

6 weeks left to semester exam. Need to constantly remind myself that. But well, reminding myself does not mean I'm going to do anything about it. Need to feel the stress come closer first before I really start doing it. Haha.

Oh, and did I mention that I failed my Probability test? 40% only. Not that I didn't study, just that the questions were not how I practiced in tutorials. I know that this is the wrong way of studying, but I'm just aiming to get over this module and receiving my PCEMS certificate.

2011-01-09T00:07:00.001+08:00

2011-01-08T23:56:00.003+08:00

I understand that we do not necessary achieve what we planned for. But I don't know how to cope with such a setback. Frankly, I'm really sick and tired of all these. I know this is a very selfish statement for me to make, but I just got to say it.

Though I stated how I feel, I will still do my best for the better of the group. Commitment for one that I'm quite stuck to now. I know that there is no longer any turning back after this route is chosen. The only thing left now is to think of how this whole thing can turn around to suit both parties.

I have mention before, once we lose this, the whole battle is over. Seems like this just happened.

2011-01-07T11:04:00.001+08:00

2011-01-07T10:23:00.002+08:00

Start of a new year = start of new school term.

I literally spent my whole holidays outside. Christmas, new year's eve and even new year's day. Spending time with friends and spending even more money. My accounts drop to an all time low. But for me, as long as everybody is happy, I guess, money is not a VERY important factor.

Everything is still quite relax in school. Not much work, or rather, I chose not to notice there is work. Haha. Though I know that exams are coming in roughly 6 weeks time, but I guess, we all work better under pressure. :)

Still trying to do my assignment which was suppose to be done during the holidays. It is already called the holidays, why do you still want students to do work. Then what kind of holiday is that? Slack and party all the way!

I posted this because someone said that I have not been updating for sometime. I'm really very lazy to sit down and type a long post. Anyway, i'm blogging now from school. Haha.

2010-12-09T21:24:00.002+08:00

Once you start tweeting, I don't know what is going to be of blogs. It is so much easier to just type out what you feel at that moment on tweet.

I no long have the feeling to sit down in front of the computer and start typing everything which I have to remember.

I won't close down the blog (for now), but just that it will not be updated so often anymore. (Not that I update it frequently too)

There are some memories which I have here and want to keep here. I don't know if it is worth it but yes, sweet memories.

2010-11-19T21:39:00.002+08:00

Back to school. Already 5 weeks and MST is in 2 weeks time but i'm not yet back in study mode. I haven't touched any of my work yet for the past school week. I'm wondering how am I going to pull through when it comes.

I'm really irritated when I try to plan something but in the end it gets cancelled. Bloody hell, these are efforts which people put in. Whatever the reason, it should be told early. Well, it may be my fault for having it last minute but that doesn't gives the reason to play around with it.

Conducting PDS Basic course in HQ these 3 days. I feel that the cadets were either not putting in the effort or they are just not cut out for it. So many of us have been trying to help and teach, but nothing just goes into them. When I grade them tomorrow, just wondering how many will pass?

7 days to iPhone 4! I don't think i'm going to get the Samsung Galaxy Tab anymore, though it looks damn interesting. Haha.

2010-09-23T11:44:00.003+08:00

Really felt bad for not joining the swim yesterday. Last minute I had to help out my father at work and I pangseh them. Hmm. Sorry Kishen, I know you put in effort to plan for us to enjoy and yet not many people turn up.

Went out with LK for the past 2 nights. Tuesday went to Punggol Park for early Mid Autumn Festival celebration. Had quite a fun time by the pond. Played with lots of candles, fire sparkers and fire. Made 2 small fireworks too, looks damn cool. Luckily didn't hurt anyone. LOL.

Last night we went to Kbox. Had a lot of fun there. All the screaming and stuff. But we had too big a group. 15 of us in a room, how many of us will get the chance to sing within the limited time? But overall, I can see that we all enjoyed ourselves. I know I have when I gave a surprise to someone. :) Hope the person like it. After that we went to Kangkar Mall to have supper and headed home.

Today is going to be a slacking day for me too. Except that I need to help my father later. These 2 days is going to be working with my father. And I have piano lesson later too. Finally after 2 weeks of examination break. I think my playing sucks to the core already. I'm too lazy to practice, don't say taking my grades next year. Hmm.

I have a few jobs in mind which I want to do, but I don't know which should I take up. Mostly are F&B, which is sort of something I have never done before. Really hard to decide. On one hand I want to enjoy my holidays but on the other, I need to help out my own wallet. Haix.

Examination results are coming out on 4th October. I'm looking forward to it. Want to know how badly I did this semester. I guess it is no point for me to cry over spilled milk, just have to work harder for the next few semesters.

I'm also waiting for a certain date to come. Hmm. Don't know if I should...

我们的约定

2010-09-20T22:05:00.004+08:00

Holiday has begun, slack my first day of it away. Watched MobTV for the first half and slept through the second half. Went out for dinner with my grandfather and now i'm home.

I didn't get the relief teaching job I thought I can get. I'm only needed when their teachers cannot commit. So i'm more like a backup. Don't know why, but like a bit not happy with it. I rather not do it but well, I need to do something to earn some pocket money for myself. Hope I can get a part time job soon.

Last Friday was NCC Day dinner. Had fun and everything. Taking photos, talking, laughing and more photos. Helped out the whole day, from setting up to the packing and unloading. Which means, I also drive the whole day. I'm so tired of driving now.

I don't know if I should. I don't want it to turn out the opposite way as what I thought. I don't want to lose.

2010-09-14T12:15:00.002+08:00

Well, it is another month from my last entry. And someone has been bugging me to update also. So here I am, just a short post.

Examinations are ending on Thursday. Didn't do well for any of my papers though. Never prepared for any of them too, thus the disappointment. Just looking forward to holidays after this Thursday. Need to find some work, earn some expenses. Planning trips to overseas with friends but I don't know if these trips will come true.

Sometimes when people says they don't care, actually they do and they care about it a lot too. I, too, am part of this. There are somethings which we are afraid to do or say, cause we are worried about the consequences. But when everything is over, we often regret not making the decision at the start.

The brightest.

2010-08-04T20:54:00.002+08:00

It is said that life is all about taking risk. Is that really so?

I have always told myself, when i'm still (relatively) young, I should try out new things and take risks. But everytime I faced with such an opportunity, I will fail to fulfil what I wanted to do. So do I count myself as a failure?

Life is short, actually very short. I watched a video posted on Facebook in the morning, You really don't know when will be your last breath or when will it be the last time you are stepping foot on ground. Things sometimes just come and go without any warning. When HE wants you back with him, there is no way for you to reject.

There is this poster I saw from my primary school days, which till now is still so fresh in my head. "When you are born, people around you smile while you cry. But when you leave this world, people around you will cry while you smile."

Will we really leave smiling? Will we already left a mark on this Earth for people to remember us? Just something for everyone to thing about.

I'm not emo, this is just something which suddenly struck me while typing. I have not planned what I want to say when I opened up blogger.

2010-07-15T00:09:00.001+08:00

I guess, you are not.

:(

2010-07-11T21:48:00.001+08:00

Are you the one?

God please give me a sign.

2010-06-27T21:29:00.002+08:00

KBOX today was definately much better than last week. Thats all I should say. And i'm going to cut down on my outings. I seriously bankrupt. No money left in my account at all. Sad life.

Spent the rest of my day sleeping. Didn't do much at all, or rather, nothing is done. I just packed a bit of my table and threw away some rubbish.

School is starting tomorrow and I don't know what to expect. Though this is not my first time going to school on the first day, just have this fear of the "new beginning". I guess all the shit will come piling in very soon. Need to get ready for my retests too (if i'm ever going to go for it).

Haix. Life in Singapore as a student is never easy. All the competition to be at the top, and just for that stupid piece of paper. Isn't that what everybody just wants to see?

2010-06-22T22:55:00.001+08:00

One mistake. It just takes one mistake for everything to fall down.

2010-06-21T21:12:00.001+08:00

Life sucks.

I'm sorry.

2010-06-17T18:01:00.003+08:00

In the midst of class chalet now, but now i'm at home waiting for piano lesson to start. Feeling alittle sian at the chalet. Nothing much for us to do there. Apart from the BBQ last night, there wasn't any activities planned. Though we rented Mahjong, but it only lasted awhile before we got bored of it. Today was the worst, woke up and did practically nothing at all. Just ate chips and played the xbox.

Anyway, I drove already! It was so fun. Haha. Drove from Hougang to Tampines to fetch my mum. Wasn't that difficult. Auto is so much easier, I just had abit of practice under my grandfather's house. The only thing I have to do is step and go. Woohoo!

2010-06-15T10:25:00.003+08:00

Alright, I shall do a very short posting. Actually don't feel like blogging anymore. Don't really see the point to do it. But anyways, here will be a very short one.

MST was a total screw up. My GPA will definately drop like mad this semester. Just have to blame myself for not studying bah. Hope I can still move on to the next semester and not do any repeat modules. Super sian.

Sunday was STAC AMAZING FOOD TRAIL. I would say it will pretty well done. Everything was going on smoothly with no major hiccups. Many thanks to the people who had put in the effot to organise such an event. Some of the activities were quite creative too. I hope everyone had as much fun as I do.

Yesterday was my driving test. Finally PASSED! No more lessons to go. L plate has converted to P plate. Haha. I'm sure there are many of you out there dying to get your license. Be patient and your time will come very soon. I was waiting for mine for so long, I understand how you all feel. The only advice I can give is that, stay calm and smile when you drive. :)

2010-05-22T11:47:00.003+08:00

Had my piano lesson after such a long time. The only thing I can say is, i'm the one to blame for everything. Not practicing, not even putting in the effort to look through the score. It was really quite sian when I hear my teacher says that the people who learned the same time as me, all have already at least memorise 2 out of 3 of the songs and i'm still stuck at the first page of the first song. How sucky can that be.

Didn't run for the past week. Wasn't feeling well. I don't know if I should attend training later, cough and flu is coming my way. I think even if i go, I won't be allow to run. Maybe I just go and help out in the admin stuff.

Finished watching the whole series of Knight Rider. It is a really cool show. If anybody wants that show, you can either wait for it to air every week or just come and get the whole series from me. :)

Went to circuit last week. It wasn't as difficult as I thought. Only that my leg was quite tired holding on to the clutch. And there are a lot of cars inside. Got to wait quite long before it reached my turn to do stuff. Hope that practice another few more times and I will be ready. Drove back home from Ubi also. Road condition didn't cause any difficulties to me. Just that not familiar driving out of Ubi. Still, I got home safely.

MST is coming in another 2 weeks time. I'm not ready for it. I can see a really big disappointment coming if I don't start doing anything now. I guess it is hard studying at home (or maybe it is just and excuse?). Anybody needs a study buddy?

Sometimes, I wish I could fake my own death just to see if anyone would notice.

2010-05-16T23:24:00.003+08:00

As I walk pass my old secondary school, i feel kind of sad to see it being teared down. Although it is nice to see it go through upgrading but the buildings there hold many memories for most of us.

This is the place which grows us to who are all are today. No matter how much we hate the school, we will still have that certain pride and gratitude when people ask where were we from. It is something so much instilled in us and I believe, up till today, many of us feels the same way too.

I don't know how or why the school has changed so much. The feeling of togetherness and friendship is no longer felt. When I was doing relief teaching, I really felt the lack of bonding between the people in the school. Everybody is thinking of only themselves and doing stuff which are so childish.

I can very much say that after leaving this certain phase of life, you will start to look at things from many different perspective. You will look back at your life and say that what you done in the past are all the stupid and childish things. And I admit, i'm one of them.

So, finally conclusion I made, this is what life is about.

2010-05-05T22:26:00.002+08:00

Did not finish my 5 km run today. I totally went out of breath at the 2.5 km mark. I will do another 5 km tomorrow. This time, I must learn to pace myself so as not to get short of breath so early. LOL.

I realised just now in school that they cut short our Term breaks and Semester breaks to squeeze the YOG break. Shorten the 2 long breaks and give us a 3 weeks break which we cannot say no de. Now Term break left 2 weeks and Semester break left 1 month. Damn sian can. I want my 3 weeks and 7 weeks!!

Tomorrow is going to be my super long and draggy day again. Spending 9 hours in school with a 1 hour break inbetween. I'm going to fall asleep during lectures and tutorials.

The week is coming to an end soon. Time is really passing so fast. And I really hope it will pass faster. I really can't wait for June to come. I'm sure all of you know why. But then again, before June can arrive, there is going to be MST. Which I think it sucks lah. This time round, modules are getting harder already. Don't know if my last minute studying will help.

2010-04-30T18:54:00.002+08:00

I always get very tired when it comes to Thursday. Especially when it comes to the practical in the afternoon. Though the tiredness, I got to drag myself through the practicals before I can go home.

Today's practical in the morning was cancelled, cause the computers are not set up yet. So I had a late start at 10am. But then again, classes end at 12 noon. So I only went to school for 2 hours. Like sian only. Stayed in school for awhile until 1pm before going for my driving lesson at 2pm.

I tried driving with new shoes today. Apparently it failed. I'm too use to thin soles, so when I wore this and drove, the feeling is so different. I stalled so many times that I lost count. I tell you, the feeling sucks. I thought I was already at a certain level, but after today, it just drop to the bottom.

2010-04-28T21:05:00.002+08:00

Back from my 6km run. Seems like i'm improving? Didn't feel that tired after finishing my run. Hope that I can continue with this run weekly. It isn't easy at all. After my first round, I really felt like giving up. But I kept on telling myself to move on. So this proves that, everything is really just in the mind.

I forgotten to mention about the running club training in HQ. It was really damn tiring. Even the fitter people had a hard time going through the training. Running up the hill is not an easy task. And I really mean literally UP THE HILL. Coach told us that training will be get tougher and I really hope i'm mentally prepared for it.

Finally got my TP date. 14th June. Looking at the calendar, it actually isn't very far away. It is just like in a month's time. I don't seem to be very ready for it, although my instructor keep telling me I will be when the time arrive.

Just learned parallel parking last week. When I was doing it, I could not understand what my instructor was telling me. But after I came home and think about it, it wasn't as difficult as it seems. Now I know the technique already, just need to got for lesson to practice. Hope to learn perpendicular parking this coming lesson. So I will be left with revision.

2010-04-28T16:08:00.002+08:00

Looking out of the window, the weather just changed from being so bright and hot to a crazy heavy rain. This has been the case for these past few weeks.

Coming to the end of second week of school. Getting use to school life already. Waking up early in the morning, spending the whole day in school and coming back home late. Though the feeling sucks, it is still a routine which must be fulfilled everyday.

Most of my lecturers this semester are much better compared to last semester. Timetable is still as sucky as last year but with good lecturers, i'm sure going through them should not be a problem. This academic year, all the aircraft stuff are coming in. I hope my brain will have the capacity to take in as much infomation as possible.

2010-04-20T20:47:00.003+08:00

School has been quite slack for this 2 days. Start of year 2, nothing really much to look forward to. I think i'm still in the holiday mood. Need some time to adjust into study mode. Although even during school days I also seldom sit down and do work. LOL. I spent more time on my laptop than on any book.

Training for AHM has already started. It is going to be a very tough route to take. By the looks of the training last Saturday, coach is really pushing us. I hope I will be able to catch up with the rest, with my poor physical conditions. Running at least 3 times a week, including training with coach. I'm trying to make this a lifestyle that will last long with me.

I like going out for outings. It is really nice to catch up with friends. Everytime I tell myself that I want to take photos to keep as some remembrance, but it always fails. I really need to invest in a camera. But this may take some time. There are so many things which I got to pay. Driving has already burnt a big hole in my pocket and it is still continuously burning. Other expenses are also a bomb. Quite crazy.

2010-04-08T20:42:00.002+08:00

2 weeks from my last post. With a blink of an eye, it is already April. How fast time flies.

Many thing has happened during the past 2 weeks. I could not remember all the details but roughly, there was a SJB outing, a movie outing which did not happen (LOL!), my final theory test, volunteer for Amazing Race and many more things which I could not remember. Eventful 2 weeks I would say.

Holidays are ending soon. Next week will be my final relax week. After that it will be full swing into school. My timetable is out, doesn't seem very good. Although it was ABIT better than my last semester's. I still haven't decided what to take for my GEMS. Need to go and check it out soon, registration this Sunday.

How I wish holidays will not end...

2010-03-22T14:00:00.002+08:00

Back from a whole week for camp. It was really tiring but I guess, I learned a lot and I also hope that people learned somethings from me too.

Spec course from Monday to Wednesday. Book in Day 0 at PLC. The RSM there didn't allow us to enter. So no choice, about 30+ of us took a cab back to HQ. Luckily can claim, if not sure complain like crazy. LOL. Next day morning, also another problem. Transport there cock up. Basically, there was a lot of cock ups during the 3 days but in the end, still managed to solve the problem.

Thursday to Saturday was Leaders' Camp back in secondary school. The secondary 3 were all pushed to their limits for the 2.5 days. All of them not having more than 4 hours sleep per night. Doing all the physical activities at every time of the day. I'm really proud of them to be able to pull through for the whole camp. Hope that for the coming trainings, I will see more of them again and work more with them.

Spent the weekends sleeping and doing nothing. Was really drained physically by the whole week of camps.

I'm really worried about my driving. Not doing very well.

2010-03-10T08:32:00.004+08:00

Almost a week since I last blogged. Not realy busy, but just didn't have the feel to come here. This is the start of my holidays, week one.

Last friday went to SRJC to see a few of my friends collect their results. They all did well, top students and all. Felt happy for them. Then went for mass in the evening. Not many people turn up, quite disappointing actually. I'm sure everybody got the message but still, not many people turn up.

Didn't do much during the weekends, practically wasted the 2 days away.

Monday was first day of relief teaching. Good experience but I don't like the job. Students were all not cooperative. Did nothing much in school also. Most of the classes which I took has a full time teacher there. I'm just there to supervise.

Yesterday didn't have call up and even if I have, I also could not make it. Had driving in the afternoon. I think I totally sucks at it lah. I thought I will do better but in the end, I was much worst. Nothing moved on, just driving all over the place. All my basic techniques sucks.

Today got a last minute call to do relief. Mostly lower secondary classes but still wasn't that easy. Classes were more cooperative this time. I realise that you have to talk nicely to the upper secondary classes for them to at least respect you a bit. I could not remember if I was like that last time. Tommorow will be another day of relief.

2010-03-04T21:36:00.002+08:00

Did last paper, Engineering Math yesterday. Questions we relatively easy, but got a few answers wrong liao. But already over le, so I also don't bother liao. Haha.

Watched "Percy and the Lightning Thief" with a few my poly classmates after paper. The movie was crap but I must admit, the effects were good. The whole thing was very realistic. I was laughing at the story plot througout the whole show. Everything was damn lame. Haha.

Evening went out to meet up with LK. They had dinner in Pizza Hut. I didn't eat, just sit in and join them. Talk abit here and there, had dinner, then went back home le. Didn't do much. I thought could stay out awhile, but they all need to go home.

Spent the whole of today doing nothing. Slack the whole morning away, then afternoon went to Ubi for driving. I don't know am I doing ok. Although car did not stall for the whole lesson but I don't think I did well when on road. Sian.

2010-03-02T08:46:00.004+08:00

Three papers have past through the weekends. I'm only left with Engineering Math tomorrow. I hope it would be an easy paper to score and do.

Electronics and mechanics are both goners. Totally down the drain man, especially electronics. Everyone was cursing and swearing when we come out of the exam hall and it is not only people from my class, but even from other courses. Crazy paper, first time ask for so many drawings. I gave up like quite a lot of marks, totally don't know how to do.

Had mechanics yesterday. Although this paper was quite badly done, I still have a little hope for passing lah. Just praying hard that even if I get the values wrong, I will have method marks.

Saturday went for chalet with my secondary school friends. It has been a long time since I really sit down and "play" with them. Now everything has change, friends come and go. We no longer are like who we used to be. And I feel like i'm the one going off very soon. Never really join them for most of their activities due to the new timetable. Most of them are in the same school which is easier for them to meet up. Hope that I will be able to still catch up with them whenever I can.

2010-02-24T20:44:00.002+08:00

The A for Math 2 has officially flown away. Just hope that I can at least get a B+ and it doesn't pull down my GPA by that much.

So many questions which I don't know how to do. I left a 10 marks question totally blank. I really don't know how to go about starting it let alone finishing it. Sian.

Electronics paper next, coming Friday. This is another gone case paper. Half the time I don't understand what the teacher is trying to teach, then the other half i'm playing. LOL. So all in all, I don't know anything about this module. Just praying hard that my last minute revision will get me at least a pass.

2010-02-23T08:40:00.003+08:00

I was totally off concentration yesterday. Almost bang into a car while driving, car stalled like millions of times, forgotten what am I suppose to do, etc...

Although I did learn U-turn but the rest of my basic techniques I could not really apply. I don't know what has gotten into me also. My instructor was still very patience with me although I did all the stupid mistakes which I should not have commited. I guess I can only hope for the better.

Math paper tomorrow. Did 75% of revision already. But there are still some questions which I don't know how to do. Got to chiong and ask people tomorrow morning before paper starts.

2010-02-20T17:54:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went to selene's house to study. Did for the first few hours then mind switch off already. Totally draining man. Maths is really a dry topic to practice and it will pissed you off when even after so many tries, you still cannot get the answer. I got stuck for like tonnes of questions. Sian.

Went cycling with selene's friends at East Coast Park. So long since I cycled or rather exercise. A few times through the route, I wanted to give up but I managed to still reach the end point and came back. I won't say the whole trip was tiring but my ass hurt a lot. LOL. Ate dinner at Eunos foodcentre. Biryani wasn't that bad but the rice was really a lot. Selene ate only like 1/7 of hers. Haha.

Spent the entire of today doing nothing but staring at the computer screen. That is totally a wrong thing to do when I have papers which I haven't started studying for and they are like only a few days away. Wish me luck.

2010-02-18T19:42:00.002+08:00

First paper down, 4 more to go. Actually today not really counted as 1 paper. I just need to get a pass for GEMS and thats all. It doesn't count into my GPA or anything. So yea. Passing for it is not a problem I guess.

3rd driving lesson today! Did pretty well I guess, only stalled once. That one is because I totally forgotten to step the accelerator. Haha. Did slope and right turning. I was so scared that the car will roll back on slope but guess what, it didn't! LOL. Instructor says next lesson will be moving on to U-turn already. Is this abit too fast?

Need to start studying for exams already. First paper is next Wednesday. I haven't even took out my notes to see. This is a very bad sign. LOL. The worst thing is that, I don't feel guilty at all. Haha.

2010-02-11T19:33:00.002+08:00

Today was a total waste of everything. Waste of time, waste of marks, waste of energy, etc...

Went to school for only 30 minutes. After doing my labtest which I totally screwed it up, go home already.

I only got myself to blame. Never read the instructions carefully and also never studied the theories behind everything. Too bad for me. 10% gone.

I don't think I will be going to school tomorrow. Waste almost 2 hours of travelling time just for 15 minutes of not even lesson.

2010-02-10T19:25:00.002+08:00

I did much better for driving today. Car only stalled 2 times for the entire lesson.

Learned right turn and drove in traffic.

I think i'm still lack of confidence. Although never stalled as much as the last lesson but when I see other cars approching, I will forget what i'm suppose to do. This is not a good sign.

2010-02-09T18:25:00.002+08:00

One lab test down, another one more to go. I didn't really do well for my Electronics today. Didn't attend the practical, so I actually don't know how to use the stupid oscilloscope. But luckily manage to learn a abit in the morning before I went in. Although I used it before, I still managed to produce the results. Teacher still told me I did not that bad. So I guess i'm safe for this time round.

Yesterday had the final Autocad test which I totally forgotten about. Went in with nothing prepared, not looking at any notes. I just did the questions with whatever knowledge I could remember from all my 4 hours Autocad lessons weekly. I felt that I did quite well this round, compared to my normal tutorials in class. Hope that marks will support my above statement.

Tomorrow will be my second driving lesson. Can't wait!

2010-02-08T07:54:00.001+08:00

I totally forgotten that I have a final Autocad test today.

Most likely I will just die during the test.

2010-02-07T13:07:00.002+08:00

Finally the lift outside my house is up and running.

Waited such a long time for it.

2 lab tests and 4 written paper coming right up!

2010-02-05T21:32:00.001+08:00

First driving lesson today.

Car stalled so many times.

Hope I will do better for next lesson.

2010-01-28T07:10:00.002+08:00

Week is going to pass soon. How fast can that be? 6 more weeks to holidays and counting down.

Lessons has not been running smoothly. My OC speech got sort of rejected, IDEAS coming out another persentation which we got to prepare, CDIO car is not ready yet. All this are falling down on us and the deadline for all the submission is next week. This is all on top of the normal tutorials which we got to hand up. There is 2 lab test coming up for the next 2 weeks. Crazy man.

On the other hand, passed my BTT already. Finally, after waiting for so long. The stupid FTT is so long away, like 2 months. I thought it will only be a month away. Cheat my feelings man. Now is time for practical lessons, next Friday will be my first!

2010-01-23T20:11:00.002+08:00

School school school.

Work work work.

That's all to be done now. But i'm not doing any of these. It just sucks.

2010-01-16T23:24:00.002+08:00

Finally the end of week 2. Haha. Time is really passing fast. If time can pass faster in school, it will definately be better.

Tests in the coming week and I haven't started anything yet. FME quizz, got to go and read up on all my statements of accounts and all the accounting stuff. Although I had POA background, it didn't really help much. Cause the understanding is there but I cannot memorise the things which are needed. This is one thing which always cause me to fail. And there is OC individual test also. Need to write a speech. I got the whole speech ready, but I have yet to sit down and break it down into parts. Notes can be brought into test but I cannot bring the whole prepared speech.

Hope that this coming week will be well. 2 tests coming up. This is the theory part and i'm quite looking forward to my practicals. Practicals are more fun than theory. Whatever you study everyday, it is so difficult to remember but when doing it in practical, then you will know how the thing really works. Thats what I like about it. And it is really fun. Haha.

Tomrrow will be going to Daryl's house to play mahjong. Long time never play le, don't know still can remember anot. Haha.

2010-01-13T19:48:00.002+08:00

Finally, one load off. OC presentation was yesterday and I think my group did not bad. Managed to pull through with whatever we want to present. We only had one rehearsal the day before. Haha. Good job everyone!

Second day of working on the racing car. Did all the cutting today. I think we are only left with a few more steps to the completion. Our class is abit behind time, but i'm quite sure that we will all be able to complete and hand up by the dateline. Haha. I still remember, we were talking about what type of route we want to take when we designed our car, whether to win in the race or win the best outlook. Seems like now, everyone of us changed our goal. As long as we finish our car in time, it doesnt matter what we win. Haha. That's quite funny.

Half a week has already pass, going to be the weekends soon. Everytime the week starts, I will look forward to the weekends. School is really mentally and physically draining. All the stuff we got to study and get into our brains, the long work hours. It is crazy. I don't know how I got through so many weeks of my this semester with such long timetable. Just hope that we will get a better timetable next semester.

2010-01-11T20:10:00.002+08:00

One week after school started. 8 weeks to the start of holiday and i'm counting down already. I'm really very tired of school, all the lectures and everything. It is really very draining. The speed that things are taught is really very fast. And the lecturer cannot just slow down because of one person. I think some of our modules, we are already behind time.

Everytime I walk to school, a thought will always come to my mind. What would my life be like if I don't have friends around me? After so many times, I still cannot imagine. This is just a random thought which came to my mind. No explaination for this. But I guess whatever that God wants you to see, there will bound to be something which will come along. I will just wait and see.

Coming these few weeks, many work are going to be due. I got to finish building my car in 2 weeks, 2 presentations this week and more assignments to come. But i'm glad all these will come to an end soon, as in for this semester. Only 6 weeks of study to go and 2 weeks of examinations. After that, will be the holidays until the start of year 2. I'm really looking very far already, still got so many more days and hours.

Looking forward to do many things this year, but have to get through many things which i'm not looking forward to before I can reach what I want. Looks like I just got to take up all these and move on.

2009-12-29T20:32:00.002+08:00

Fianlly I decided to sit down and open blogger to type something here. It has really been a long time. Almost a month has gone by and holidays are ending soon, so sad.

I enjoyed myself for the past 2 weeks. First was STAC retreat. I think it will really well done. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Although this time there were lesser activities compared to the last one, but I thought that the things we went through were more meaningful. I really enjoyed Laoren's session, although I slept for the second last one. Haha. Was tired from the whole day already. This retreat really helped me to think and know more about myself.

After the retreat, the next day was off to Malaysia. The trip up to Cameron Highlands (CH) was really dizzy. The number of turns and bends we got to go through before we really reach our destination was crazy. Luckily it was in the night and all of us were sleeping with our MP3 on. I like the weather at CH. It was really cooling. I did not perspire at all when I was there for the 2 days. Took a lot of photos but haven't got them yet. Most likely will be uploaded up to FB.

The next 2 days was at KL. This was a totally different climate. I perspire like crazy there. It was just normal Singapore weather. Had a lot of fun there too but never really take any photos. Spent most of our time shopping at "Chinatown" and the shops around there. The imitations sold there were crazily a lot and cheap. I didn't really get anything except for sunglasses and afew shirts. We also went to a indoor themepark. The trip back was quite long and boring. This time I sat alone and could not fall asleep. LOL.

Went for Christmas mass the next day right after we came back from Malaysia. Was tired but still manage to "pull through". Went to Jason's house after mass for a game a bridge. Went back to his house again in the evening for Chirstmas party. Didn't really party much, just sat in his room, talk and drink. I think it has really been some time since we sat down and talk like that. I really like the feeling. Selene and Jason were giving me some opinions on my driving lessons.

Saturday was a mini celebration at Selene's house. Got quite a lot of food and play some card games there. People were playing Monopoly Deal, bridge and poker. Watched a few movies too. Before we left, Uncle Sam played some random songs on the piano and we just sing along. I think this is what I call bonding. No planning needed, just people's participation and God will work wonders for us. Haha.

Sunday went for Mass. Lost part of my voice, I think due to my Malaysia trip and the eating of junk food. Practice lasted a bit longer than usual but I left early cause I went ot book for my BTT, scared the counter would have already close if I went later. In the end, there wasn't any queue there, just went in select a date and paid the money. Within 10 minutes, I was done with everything. Went to meet up with the choir people for a movie at Cathay, Alvin and the Chipmunks. Funny show but I think the first one was better. I was too tired, sleeping like for the first half of the show. After that we went down to Marina Square to play arcade. Thank you everyone for your wishes and presents. I really appreciate all of them.

Yesterday went for wedding mass in the morning. There wasn't many people due to it being a weekday and everyone has to work. And I realised after reaching there that it was Uncle Raymond's sister getting married. I didn't know it until I saw him in the church. Sang for mass and went for the reception after that. I think this is the "grand-est" reception I have been too after a wedding mass. There were like waiters serving and the tables and chairs were like as if it was in a hotel. Really cool. Food served were also top class. I enjoyed the sushi and soft shell crab there the most. Haha.

2009-12-08T20:00:00.002+08:00

Finished 3 papers already. 3 down, 2 more to go and it will be holidays after that. WOOHOO!!

Monday before I went for Autocad, had FME presentation. I think everybody did well. My group manage to deliever what we wanted to share and did it quite well I would say. My first time giving a presentation to people I don't know. I tried my very best to put up a confident front when I speak and I sort of did it. Haha.

After that, went for Autocad test. Before we enter the room, we were like still asking the teacher how to draw this and that. Luckily all the difficult things like the blind drill hole and stuff didn't come out. But I think the orthographic projection killed most of us. So many slant surfaces and I don't even know how to start. 65% out of the whole paper for that 1 question. But surprising the second question was quite easy, did it in like 15 minutes. From what I see, passing is not a problem for this paper. It is only how high I will score.

Had E Math and Electronics papers today. Had so many careless mistakes for the 2 papers. Lost so many marks. And once again, passing will not be a problem but it is the grade that I will get. For E Math, I only did 1 revision paper in the morning and thats all. So I can only blame it on my complacency. Then for Electronics, I almost studied more than I have to. I didn't know we are only tested until chapter 4 and I wanted to study until chapter 7. LOL. Luckily Ivan told me. And also luckily I studied with Ivan just now. He taught me a lot of things I don't know and help me understand some of the concepts too.

Tomorrow will be my forth and second last paper, Mechanics. I think this one will be done quite badly. I will only be hoping for a pass, not expecting anything higher than that. I believe it takes two hands to clap and while I blame myself for not studying on my side, the lecturers sucks. Nothing has been taught properly, always assume that we will understand what he is talking about. Do all the questions on the board and ask us to copy but do not give any explaination for his working. Like as good as just giving us the answer sheet and let us go home read ourselves. I think thats all I can say about him. Bottomline, lecturers for Mechanics sucks.

Looking forward to the holidays in 3 days time. Got to just get through the next 2 papers then I will be on my way to enjoyment for 3 weeks. Haha. After that will be suffering again. But who cares, just enjoy first.

Going for some carolling this weekend. I think the person coordinating it isn't really "friendly". Asking for volunteers but when people signed up, got turned down. And those people who volunteered and got in, were told that they are choosen. I mean, come on, we volunteered and we did not beg you to let us join. You are in need of people and still being so choosey and cocky. I just cannot stand this type of people.

2009-12-06T22:12:00.002+08:00

Term 1 of second semester has ended. And tomorrow will be the start of MST week already. My nose is really giving me problem. Having flu since don't know when. Nose cannot stop dripping. Looks like I got to bring tissue paper for test tommorow. LOL.

I don't like the paper tomorrow. First paper only kill us already, autocad. I'm not really confident drawing on the computer. Or rather, i don't really like drawing at all. Looking at all the practice paper, I can tell that I won't do very well. But no choice I guess, I will just have to try my best.

Before paper starts tomorrow, I still have presentation to do in the morning. I'm also not confident for this. I did the research on what I got to say just now, but still not sure of it. I think it is because i'm in an unfamiliar setting, talking to people I don't know at all (casue it is a GEMS class). I don't know anyone in the class at all, just me and myself.

Time is really passing quickly. So fast and the term has already ended. I think with another blink of and eye, I will have completed my year 1 already. Polytechnic life has been tough, but I just have to get use to it. Got another 2 years plus to go before I graduate.

2009-11-27T22:43:00.002+08:00

Just 2 weeks left to MST. Really looking forward to the events after MST but not the tests. Thinking of taking the tests only make me feel so sian.

There are so many things I need to do and have yet to start doing yet. As in not really things that I want to do but things which I must do to hand up. That is the boring part. All the research and stuff all just comes in together. And the worst part, all of these must be presented and handed in by next week. I got altogther 4 presentations, 1 speech and 1 drawing to do on top of all my revisions for tests. And so far, I have only completed my drawing. How bad can it be?

Celebrated sel's birthday at 12mn on Wednesday. Met up with Jason around 11.45pm then surprise her at exactly the time. Haha. It was fun. Talk a bit, then drank champagne which Jason has brought. I guess alcohol just isn't my cup of tea. After one cup, I was already very red and feeling hot. My head is spinning like crazy. We left her house about 1.30am? I cannot really remember. Didn't take note of the time when we left. Haha. Walk back home from her house. I was feeling really tired. I just kept on trying to take bigger steps so I can reach home faster. Knock out straight when I got home. As expected lah. Haha.

This whole week wasn't really that fantastic. Now most of the lecturers are starting their revision already. I think most likely I will get like lost and blur for most of them. They teach as if they are bullet trains. Maybe i'm just dumb and slow. I just cannot catch up like the rest of my classmates.

I'm so afraid...

2009-11-15T22:16:00.002+08:00

Yet another 2 weeks have passed. I hope that if I don't go and keep on counting down it, holidays will come faster. Haha.

The passing out of the 35th Band NCO Camp was, I would say a success. Although there were some minor faults here and there, but what can we say? They tried their best. Well done! Training all of them was quite fun, they aren't like the NCC cadets who we usually train. They readily ask questions when doubt and also know when is the time to cut their jokes when needed.

After that was one week was normal school week which was just over. School load has been much better than last semester but the number of presentations gone up. I guess I don't mind doing them cause when I look from a different angle, it sort of build up my confidences talking to people. At least all these are my classmates, so even if I make a mistake, we will just laugh over it for awhile rather than I learn it the hard way next time. But overall, it seems quite a easier semester compared to the last one.

Spending a little time in NCC nowadays, helping out SM in terms of PDS. A bit of lost touch on my side, but still manage to help some way or another. Plans for next year is quite big, so it would be good if I can do my best to help out in anyway possible.

Yesterday was the official closing of Montfort Secondary School. I would say that the school does brings back memories when I look back. All the fun times as a class, as student councillors. All these memories will just remain in our hearts while the places where we build this memories are being teared down. But I sort of agree with Bro Emmanual. He said that this is the time to begin a new chapter in life. Keep all the not so good stuff behind and bring forward the happy memories we all have in the present site. So I guess, this is goodbye to the school. I sort of felt sad when we sang the school song for the last time in the school hall yesterday. That was the time when I truely understand ther whole meaning behind the song after singing it for almost 11 years.

"All ye sons of Montfort school"

4 more weeks......and counting....

2009-11-03T22:11:00.002+08:00

Second day of the Band NCO Camp. I guess it is really tiring going for training in the morning and school in the aftnoon. Totally shag out. Keep on wanting to fall asleep during practical and lecture just now.

Now my gums hurt. Just now when I was eating, I felt something hard when I was bitting. So I thought it was nothing and bite onto it. The whole thing poke straight into my gums, super pain. After I used my hand to take it out, it was a about 0.5cm screw. I can't believe that it just poke into my gums. Now feel a bit weird, like got one hole down there. But I cannot do anything about it also, just have to leave it. Just have to bear with the pain for the next few days.

Just watched "Where got Ghost?". I won't say that it is a must watch show cause it isn't really that fantastic. The stories were a bit short and stories isn't very good also.

2009-11-02T21:46:00.003+08:00

This is the start of the third week of school. I don't know whether time is passing fast or slow, but I only have roughly about 6 weeks to the start of my next holiday. I can't wait for holidays to come, there are quite a few things to look forward to.

The first 2 weeks of school was rather boring. Can adapt to school life quite fast but the lecturers are just not as cooperative as last semester. I think it is going to be a not fun semester this time round. Lecturers are super slow in whatever they are teaching and cannot really understand them. Though I still like the lesser papers to take for the coming examinations this time.

Today was the start of 35th Band NCO Camp, went there as a trainer. I feel that the trainees were actually quite good with their drills but they are just playful. I need to think of a way to make them more motivated in what they do. I guess I wasn't stern even with them just now. We will see how things go for the next 4 days.

Quite a lot of things lined up from the end of November to December. Really looking forward to them. Long time never spend so much time playing already. Hope everyone can take the December period to relax and enjoy themselves from the stressful year.

2009-10-17T15:52:00.002+08:00

Ending of holidays. Kinda of feeling happy but also quite sian that school is starting.

Quite a boring holiday I would say. Didn't achieve much for the whole 6 weeks. Camps after camps, work day after work day. Then when I have the free time to do stuff that I want, I don't know what to do. Am I stupid or what?

Went for OCS Experiential Camp last week. Got to sort of got to feel the daily routine of the officer trainees. Quite tiring days they have there. Imagine having to go through it for 9 months. Now i'm contemplating wheather I should aim for it. I guess there will also be other factors which will cause not to be able to get there, even if I want to.

Timetable for next semester came out last week. I didn't notice I got a change of class until I compare it with my classmate's. After all the calling and stuff, the department thought that because I took the vaction paper so i'm dropping the module. Then they change my class. I think they should be more professional about it. Just because people took the vacation paper does not mean they are dropping that particular module. And moreover it is my Diploma-Plus module.

And I also registered for my GEMS. I didn't know what I should take, so I followed my classmates. Finaicial Management for Engineers. Sounds like some cheem stuff, don't know what is it going to be. And deciding to follow them, but didn't got the same class. Cause I registered late, all the slots for that particular class had been taken up. So I guess I will be alone bah, no problem with me.

A few more events and the year will be over. For NCC, I will be attending the 35th Band NCO camp as a trainer and most likely that will be all. Choir will have a few events coming up. But thinking of some of it, I already become sian. Maybe not everybody will understand how people feel bah. Opinions are voiced out, suggestions are more or less given but still, the disappointment. There are still some events which i'm looking forward though.

1 more day to the start of a new semester. Looking forward to it? Just have to endure another 8 weeks to my next holiday.

2009-09-24T20:16:00.002+08:00

Went for make up paper for Math in the morning. Paper was easier than I expected? Haha. Although there are still quite a number of questions which I don't really understand how to do, but I guess passing isn't a problem.

After that got the Director's signature for my OCS Experiential Camp form from SMAE office. Stupid sia, luckily he is there. If not, I don't know got to wait until when then can get my form back. I told the lady, anybody can just sign but she tell me cannot. Need the Director to approve. Like if he never come in, then I don't need to get it sign liao lor. LOL.

Was running about the whole day lah. Went back to Montfort to get the same form and my parade claim signed. And yes, getting papers sign again. Just to get money, I need to like go everywhere to get papers sign. Then took a bus down to HQ. Spent some time there, helping Mdm Gurdip with some stuff. After that left for home.

I can't wait for my birthday!! The wait is really killing me. Just now, I took about 3 hours to get everything I needed and hand it in. If I had driving licence, it would have only taken my 30 minutes. Look at the difference. The car is just parked at the carpark downstairs and I can't use it. Really cannot take it man. My mum still tell me: "You got no licence. If not you could have taken the car downstairs." Shit.

Anyway, work started this week. I think I will just have go through this 4 weeks knowing that it sucks lah. I'm going through it only because of the money. If not, I wouldn't willingly spend my time sitting in the warehourse/office, doing almost nothing or doing packing in the warehouse. Not that I don't want to help out, but I just feel like something is wrong. I don't know how to describe the feeling. 4 weeks lah, still got 3 more to go. Must ren!!

2009-09-20T19:27:00.002+08:00

Time for my update. I think the blog is dying soon. I don't know what to write in here also.

Since the start of holidays, I have been very busy. From last week, I had Specialist Course in SISPEC. Then this whole week which has just passed, I was in HQ. 2 days of Camp FORGE, 2 days of Camp STEEL and 1 day of IMT. Imagine the time I spend for NCC. But I guess, all these is worth it. There are a lot of experience which I gain from all these camps. From doing logistics to administration to even on the ground training. It really increases my knowledge on stuff which I don't really know last time.

Hmm, maybe I would say a few lines about the course and camps which I had just went. Specialist course was quite a cock up in the beginning. We were stuck outside the guard house for in-processing for almost 2 hours. And therefore the delay of all our activities. There was also a change of plans, where all the 4 districts which was there combined into 1 course. This cause quite a problem for training side as our training plan kept on changing. I didn't interact much with the cadets as I was doing admin all the way. In the end, I would say that the course was overall a success, cause we managed to pull through it with only 6 trainers.

Camp FORGE and STEEL was quite well done, I would say. Didn't really have a lot of major problems, only a few minor ones here and there. Did admin and logistics for the first camp and training as 2IC for the second camp. So in short, I served almost all the roles available in a camp in 4 days. The trainers were all tired, cause of the continuous camp for 4 days. But we all still managed to pull through when we encourage one another on for the whole duration. I sincerely thank all the trainers who willingly gave up their time to help make the whole of the 2 weeks a success.

There won't be anymore activities that I will be going until quite some time later. Going to start working this coming week already. Need cash badly. Thinking of my school fees, coming driving and everything else. Really broke to the core. My whole of the next 4 weeks will be work and work only. Sian.

2009-08-20T19:53:00.004+08:00

Finally decided to sit down and blog. It has really been a long time since I touch blogger. Cause it seems to be giving me problem, cannot load this blogging page properly. Only yesterday I found out from Laoren that it is because the java script or something like that is the one causing it. So need to press Ctrl-F5 to reload it again. Haha.

Many days have passed. The last time I blog was like 20 days ago? I guess like always, I won't be able to remember every detail that happened throughout this 20 days, but I will try my best to recall them as much as I can.

National Day that week, I was like celebrating birthdays for 3 consecutive days. Haha. First was Vivian's birthday. That one was quite an impromtu decision to celebrate it. First, I met up with Sel on Friday, thinking of what to get Jeremy for his birthday on Saturday. Then she says that she got to celebrate Vivian's birthday also. So we also went to look for her present. While thinking of what to get her, she just ask if I would be able to join and go to Vivian's house to celebrate. Haha. Like so random. But it is so like her lor. LOL. We called Vivian and she said it was alright. So we went. Sel drove us there, cause she was able to get hold of her dad's vehicle. I think it was rather "unsafe" taking her vehicle? Haha. Just joking. I think she just needs more practice thats all. We played bridge and talked at Vivian's house until roughly 1am, then we headed back home.

The next day, which was Saturday, afternoon went to Sengkang gym to train. Cause I asked for a personal trainer, then my mum said that her trainer for aerobics offers to help me on Saturdays cause she is working as a FI at Sengkang gym. So now, I will try to make it a point to go to gym on Saturdays also. After the first training with her, I realised that a lot of the exercises which I always use to train is wrong. Not that the exercise is wrong, but it is the form. I think I can only blame myself for not putting in the effort to find out more when I started off. But that day was really a killer for me. After learning all the correct form, even lighter weights I also got problem carrying. Haha.

After that, evening time met up with Sel and Jason to go for Jeremy's birthday party. It was at Serangoon Gardens Country Club. Sel's father sent us there, cause we thought we were almost late? But when we reach there, seems like everyone is still eating. So we also sat down and eat lor. It was steamboat lah, usually stuff. After that, SJB went to a room which was suppose to be the room where his party was held, but then it was too small. And we thought people will be going there after their meals, in the end, we were alone inside for almost 30 minutes before Jeremy called us to go to the Karaoke room. Sang afew songs inside, cut cake, then went home already. This time is my parents send us back. Haha.

Then Sunday (which was National Day), I couldn't remember what exactly happended during church in the morning. But I guess it was just the usual stuff lah, mass, practice, 401 then go home. Haha. I went home after church and slept till late afternoon before going out to celebrate Jeffrey and Ming Hui's birthday. I was so angry when I reached the train station. I was told and reminded that I must reach Cityhall station by 4pm. So as usual, I know that they will be late, I left my house only at 3.45pm. I reach Hougang station around 4pm. So I just decided to call the rest to see where are they, and the reply I got was, "Oh, you want to come find us? Jeffrey is still playing dota." I tell you, I was so angry at that time, I almost wanted to go home. But luckily I saw Derry, then I went to Cityhall with him. I think sometimes it is a bit too much. Late until like that, still can tell me someone is playing game. This is something I totally cannot accept. If you tell me that you are going to be late, I will still wait. But you don't say anything and expect people to ask and wait, I think it is totally off me. Friends can be friends, but I think this kind of thing is mutual respect for each other.

We went on with the plans. Went for dinner at Waruku which costs us $466.33 for 16 people. Almost wanted to stay back and wash plates for them already. Haha. We ordered like nobody's business, I think we ordered like almost all the most expensive dishes. LOL. After that, we went to soemwhere outside Marina Square to watch the fireworks. I think I will never ever go and watch fireworks again. So many people squeezing there and cannot really see also. After watching, we went to Eski Bar to chill cause the weather was really crazy. Sat there for awhile, then we went around Clarke Quay and Boat Quay to chill. Walk all over the place and see things which I think some of us never see before; the night life. After that, we seperated into 3 cabs to go home. For mine cab, we sent Yihui home first, then Ah Neo and me went back to Hougang. I reached home roughly about 4am. Then the next morning was the latest that I ever woke up, at 12.30pm.

The rest of that week, didn't have much things which happen. The only two things which happened was the CRS and ONOW presentation. Both were rather fast and easy to pull through. My ONOW presentation, I was like crapping the whole time through, didn't prepare anything at all and all my answers from the floor were thought of on the spot. Haha. But for CRS, although it was rather easy, there was a bit of problem with the answering-questions-from-the-floor part. Our group was asked like the most questions out of the 4 presenting groups lah. But rather interesting I would say.

The Monday that just passed, met Sel for supper, was at her house downstairs MacDonalds slacking. Checked the amount of money needed to take driving at the end of the year. Seems like it is a quite big amount. I calculated, if I pass everything on first try, it will take me a bit more that 1.9k which I think is quite a lot. Talk to her about all the random stuff and we started singing songs. Haha. After that I went home cause next day still got to go to school.

Yesterday, went to gym in the morning with Sel then kBox with Laoren and Daryl. Really had lots of fun. Haha. The screaming and shouting inside the room, can be heard from the toilet. LOL. Sang quite a few songs, some I also never hear before de. Haha. Can learn new songs and also can learn chinese!! After that, went to the coffeeshop downstairs to chit-chat. Talked about a lot of things lah, I think this kind of gathering is the best. Not too many people, then we all can share our own opinions on stuff. Haha.

2009-08-01T22:27:00.001+08:00

Back from my long long break again. Haha. I always wanted to blog every now and then but something is just stopping me from it. It is like, everytime I on my laptop, I got this urge to want to write something but I just am too lazy to open up the browser to type it down. So here I am now, after sort of ‘forcing’ myself here. Haha.

I finish all my MST already and the next coming up is Semester Test. Sort of looking forward to it but not because I like taking test, but it is the 6 weeks vacation we have after the 2 weeks of test. LOL. Throughout the whole 2 weeks which I didn’t blog, nothing special really happened. But there were some main events which I could mention.

I finally cleared my CRS MST and ONOW debate.CRS MST was quite tiring. Now I understand that the laptop has made us very lazy in writing. Cause the whole CRS MST, we got to write an argumentative essay. So we all thought it was quite easy but then, when we started to write, we found out that it was really tiring. We were all so use to just typing on the laptop. Haha. But in the end, we all still managed to finish everything lah. And for the debate, I asked for it to be postponed cause my group was only left with 2 points to debate. We started off with 5 points, the as time pass by, I found out that 2 points were not really appropriate for the debate, so I took them out. Then 5 minutes before the whole thing started, I took out another 1 point, because I reread it again, and it also didn’t make sense to me. So I asked for it to be postpone and luckily teacher and the opposing group agreed.

On the 19th July, celebrated my grandfather’s 70th Birthday. It was at the function room at my uncle’s condo. I went over to help set up a little after mass in the morning. The whole celebration lasted from morning till about early afternoon. The buffet that we catered, we thought wasn’t even at the start, but towards the end, there were so much leftovers. Everyone got to like packed a few packet of food home. Haha. The celebration was a success and my grandfather was quite happy. Everything that we did, was all for my grandfather. As long as he is happy, we all will be willing to do anything for him. Haha.

The whole of the week was as per normal, going and coming back from school. Super boring I can tell you. I really can’t wait to get my driving license so that I can drive to school. The morning rush for the train is really a killer man. LOL. Had Electrical Technology practical test on Monday and C Programming practical test on Friday. I think both test were fairly easy. But for the Monday’s test, I sort of screw up for my connecting of circuit. I missed 1 whole resistor lah. When teacher was checking, I was like, WTH!! I TOTALLY MISSED IT. No choice, because of that, minus 3 marks. But the calculation part, I was like confident. C Programming was easier than the tutorials that we did in class. I could have finished it in 30 minutes, but because I missed a ‘=’, that cause me to recheck my whole program for 15 minutes. So wasted my time can. But after knowing my mistakes, the whole test just ended quite fast.

This week, except for the debate, everything was as per normal. Nothing much happened. Was really sleepy for the whole week, don’t know due to what. Even after sleeping early at night, it still did not really help much. So I actually fell asleep in a few classes during the week. LOL. Although it wasn’t what I wanted, but I really could take it lah. My eyes could not keep open during the lectures.

Yesterday went for a very simplified taking over ceremony in Montfort. The whole thing was like so impromptu and I got to help them do the ‘parade’ and stuff. Their drills really could not make it. I don’t even know where should I start to help them. But now after taking over, more responsibilities are on their shoulders and I hope they will be able to carry and perform what they are asked to do. After training, the teachers treated them to Pizza Hut and asked me to join. So an offer has been made to me, why not just go? Haha. Of cause I went, and we even ate till we could not walk. LOL.

2009-07-15T21:49:00.001+08:00

Didn’t manage to keep up to what I say about the blogging often part. Haha. It has been like almost 2 weeks since I last blogged?

I think a lot of things had happened for this past 2 weeks. I will try to recall as much as I can here. Had the rest of my papers for MST for the first week. I guess all the papers were relatively easy bah; C Programming, Engineering Math and Thermofluids. The only problem I faced was in C Programming cause I never really study for it, then when it came to the part of writing a program, I just lost down there. I just wrote all the standard stuff and crap something out for the ‘body’ part. Thermofluids was not that bad. I managed to remember all the formulas needed and just applied them in the paper. Haha. Next came Engineering Math. I think this is the lamest MST paper of all. 1.5 hours paper, ¾ of my class finished it in like 15 minutes? LOL. The paper was quite easy to do also.

That week, I also had a few AYG shifts. I just never go for duty for 3 days, like got so many happening things sia. Haha. Shan’t talk about the events that happen, I think really got too many things. Haha. Stayed over on Friday, wanted to watch Death Race, but I think we all drove too fast, went to sleep when we touched the bed. LOL. Next morning, as usual, we were ALMOST late again. But luckily we made it in time and the girls were already there mending the station. So basically the whole day was normal duties, I don’t think there is anything special that happened.

Left early in the evening to attend Louise’s school concert. First time I attended a concert alone. Really like some idiot? I don’t know the place and I know nobody there. I think I was like one of the first to arrive. Then I notice something, the prefects that were on duty, from my point of view, were not professional enough. Running around, laughing and playing when guests already arrived. This is something which I discourage my councilors from doing last time. But it is not my school, so I got not say. Haha. The concert overall was quite interesting. But maybe I don’t know how to appreciate dramas and dances, so they seem very boring to me. But I can say that in terms of performing arts for music, they were quite good. Met up with Louise after that and bused/walked her home.

Sunday, was like every other week, woke up early and prepared for church. After practice, we headed out to Marina Mandarin for lunch. That was what we had plan for but upon reaching there, seems like there wasn’t any place for 7 of us. And I think they also didn’t want to serve us. Cause we were standing at the reception for so long and the lady on the phone didn’t even bother to check and told us that there isn’t any space. I think this type of service attitude sucks. If it is just because we were in polo shirts and jeans, then I don’t know what attire I must wear to be worthy of entering. LOL. After that, we walked back to Marina Square. After looking at the directions, someone decided that we go will go to “Yuki Yaki”. I didn’t know what was that, so I just followed. It is another shop like “Seoul Garden”. Whack the meat like crazy and we also had lots of fun too. Haha. I think we all enjoyed the ice-cream the most. Rena was like going crazy? LOL.

The last of whole week, apart from lessons, I also went down to AYG for the last 2 days. Did normal duties again. But this time, they took back quite a lot of places so we only like got 2 places which we got to station ourselves? Slack all the way, talked to Kuan Hoe for quite some time also. Haha. Did a bit of duty for the closing ceremony, then went home after that. Took back some results. My class generally did quite well for all papers. I think I also didn’t do that bad also. I think maybe because it is only MST, the papers were quite easy. I also had Diploma-Plus MST on Wednesday. I didn’t check thorough enough, made a lot of mistakes. Then I also never say study for it, so a lot of questions I also don’t know how to do.

Saturday met up with Clive and the gang. Went all the way up to Orchard, then came back to Serangoon Gardens. Like a bit waste my time but never mind. Haha. Chilled at “Liquid Kitchen”. Managed to catch up a bit with the rest of the people. Played pool with some of them and drank also. Stayed there till 2am, then left. Clive and those staying near him, took a cab back. Ah Neo and Yihui took a bus? I didn’t really ask how they going back. Then Randy, Derry and me took bus back.

Sunday went to church again as usual. Nothing really special that happen. Went home and sleep awhile before starting a bit of work.

This week, nothing much happen also. Finally went to gym on Monday, Frankie and Idris were also there. Need to chiong quite a bit for this week. CRS MST is this Friday, haven’t completed finding my points yet. Then next week got ONOW debate to do. I really hate these 2 modules. Got totally no link to my course and it is considered core modules. It just sucks.

Thank you.

2009-06-30T16:13:00.003+08:00

Last Friday was my first day of duty at AYG. Woke up at like 4.45am and went down to Swissotel at like 6.30am. When I came out from Cityhall MRT, I was like finding how to go to Swisshotel. I didn't know at all can. I only know it is sort of above Raffles City but I don't know how to get there. LOL. In the end, I saw the shopping centre just open, so I followed the signs inside to find my way. When I reach, luckily got people I know there, then I just wait there till madm arrive.

Duty was sort of fun at the start lah. Sit infront of the thermal scanner for the whole time, screening the people who enters the location. After doing sometime, was getting abit sian and tired liao. But no choice lah, just continued doing until duty ends. I only did the morning shift cause got to attend Selene's concert in the evening time. Went home after shift ended to rest.

Met up with Daryl before going to the concert venue. We spent like quite long finding the place. We only know it is YMA and it is at Waterloo Street but how to get there and stuff, we got like totally no idea. We walked from Cityhall MRT to Singapore Art Museum which was also damn far cause we walked one round. LOL. In the end, after following Laoren's direction of finding the yellow light, which we couldn't really find, we still managed to got to the place. Haha. The concert was quite interesting. I think this is one of the best concerts I have been to. Everytime I go to a concert, I will always fall asleep during the first half. But this time, I was awake for the whole thing. Haha. Not that those concerts that I went to was lousy but because I don't really enjoy those competition pieces which they sing. This concert, it was a mix of songs which I think was quite good. It sort of captures people's attention when it is getting boring. Haha. This time didn't went out after concert, cause Selene's parents were there to fetch her home. So Laoren, Daryl and I went to Raffles City to get something to drink and maunch on. Laoren and Daryl left for home which I went back to Swissotel to look for the AYG people.

After meeting up with them, we walked to Pan Pacific Hotel. We were given rooms to stay in because we got to do duty quite early in the morning. The people who stayed in were Firdaus, Gabriel, Kuan Hou and me. We really enjoyed ourselves in the night. LOL. That sounds wrong. The room facilities were superb man. We were like watching Power Rangers for the whole night. Haha. And there were many funny things which happened too.

Next morning, all of us almost couldn't wake up. Cause I think the longest time we slept was only about 2 hours? LOL. We were suppose to leave the room by 5am but in the end, we only woke up at 5am. So I quickly got out of bed, wash up and left for duty place with Gabriel while Firdaus and Kuan Hou stayed behind for awhile to pack up the mess. Haha. The same duties again lah. I think it was alittle bit better cause I know more people le and I started to talk more to the secondary school kids. LOL. Was damn tired for the whole day due to the lack of sleep at night. Haha. Still managed to pull through until the end although I dozed off a few times during duty. We ended duty around 10pm and my parent came to pick me up. I KO-ed in the car sia. Really too tired le.

Still woke up early to go to church the next morning. Didn't know that got to take temperature de sia. It was like the duty that I need to do at AYG. Haha. Before enter, the wardens will take your temperature and then issue you with a sticker. After mass and practice, went down to 401 as usually. This time didn't stay for long lah, just talk awhile then all go off le. Cause I was already very tired, need to go home rest and also the next day MST start already. Slept through the whole afternoon and started studying for E Tech in the evening. I think I did not bad. Spent like 3 hours studying. Haha. Learned quite a lot also. Cause I usually don't listen in class de. LOL. Slept around 10pm.

First day of MST. Morning I was still quite nervous, started to study. Then went to school, saw kG and chit-chatted with him for awhile. After that, proceeded up to the examination room. I think I did fairly well for the paper bah. My answers all tally with my classmates answers. Even those which I studies myself, also correct. Haha.

Today's paper was I think quit bad. I only managed to correctly answered a few questions and the rest I just agar agar whack. I hope can get correct lah. For those that I whack, of cause I got think through de lah. Left the room after 1 hour of the 1.5 hours paper. Really couldn't think of what to write le, so no point I sit inside and waste time also.

Tomorrow got no paper, but got AYG duty. Haha. I signed up for the whole say sia. Don't know wheather later got time to study for Thursday's C Prog test. But who cares, just enjoy myself first. Haha.

2009-06-25T19:31:00.002+08:00

Monday and Tuesday, went to help Uncle Raymond in St. Gabriel's Primary School's Student Care. We did it as part of the community project that we need to do for school. It was quite a new experience. Need to take care of the primary school kids for everything sia. Haha. From study time to playing, then eating and bathing. I think if someone got weak heart go and work there, will die de lor. They are really a bunch of don't understand instructions kids. But I guess, this the phase where everyone got to go through in life.

Then the past 2 days, was at Sembawang Sea Training Centre for the 1 Star Kayaking Course. I didn't know the course was so short. We just took like 1.5 days to complete everything, including the assessment. But I think it was because the number of people taking was small lah. We only had 4 trainees. Haha. Learn and refresh all the stuffed that was taught to me before. I totally forgotten what I learn last time lah, so it was more of a lesson for me. Haha. The last time I kayak was last year already, then now I kayak don't know when is the next time i'm going to go into sea again. But now I finally got my 1 Star certification. YEAH!! Haha.

2009-06-21T18:51:00.003+08:00

Now, I will try to blog as often as possible. Haha.

Last night went out with the STAC Basses for outing, this time was to Lau Pa Sat. Wanted to eat at the Satay Club but when we reached there, the guy told us that it started drizziling so asked us to stay inside. So we believed him and stayed inside. Ordered all the food from his stall and started to eat. I think the food wasn't up to standard. Still cannot compare to the food we ate at Chomp Chomp. And the oh luah, I tell you, it sucks. It is just plain egg with oyster. Not the normal ones we eat with starch. That's why when we ate halfway, we like felt got something missing. Haha.

After all our food adventure inside, we decided to walk outside to look for teh tarik cause Daryl said that there is a stall outside quite famous de. When we walk out, we realise that we got cheated lah. There wasn't any drizzle or rain at all outside. From the looks of the people sitting outside can tell liao lor. This time we sat down but didn't order anymore satay, cause we already ate inside. In the end, after walking around to see the stalls, we ordered chicken wings and another plate of stingray. Haha. Cause inside, we ordered the malay stall, now we come out and try the chinese stall. And in the end, we found Helen. LOL. Only the people who went will understand. Haha.

Talk for awhile, most of the stuff about choir. Manage to think of a few plans and events that we MAY consider doing. Haha. Need to see how lah. We left about 9.35pm and made our way home. Next stop for Bass outing will be in Little India. Haha.

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2009-06-18T19:16:00.000+08:00

Alright, just finish a very long week of camp and courses. Almost 10 day consecutive of staying out.

Started off with Specialist course on 1 June, my first “big” camp. At first, I was supposed to be PC for platoon 6 but after asking for a change of post because I won’t be around for the last day, I was change to become S1. It was also because S1 got to be done by the night itself and the understudy wasn’t there, so I just exchange place lor. Haha. First time we had to go over to camp ourselves. We took MRT to Joo Koon, then walk over to SDC cause the meeting area was there. Started off with attendance taking then cadets were move bus by bus to Pasir Lebar Camp.

The whole first day, I was super stressed up. I didn’t know doing S1 was so much work. I think I was the first one can, I got to call all COs whose cadets are in camp to confirm manpower. My phone bills will confirm go burst de. I spent like 3 hours doing so can. After that, there was so many problems that came out from the cadets side, really can kill them lah. Because of some cadets, our strength on the nominal roll kept on changing. It was only finalize I think on the end of the second day. Many other problems surfaced, but it is not convenient to mention any of them. I also didn’t stay for the last day, cause got tests in school. And I wasn’t really feeling well after camp too.

After that, I rested for about 13hours? Haha. Friday was normal day in school, pon the makeup lesson for C Programming. Anyway, also do nothing de. Just go there and do past year paper? LOL. Then evening time, went back to Montfort for Leaders’ Camp. When I reach there, saw all the instructors in No.4, only I one person in civilian, so I paiseh lah, went back home to change also. Haha. Lucky uniform already dry from all the airing in the day. I won’t talk about the whole camp, cause I didn’t attend everything. But this time, it is sort of a different feel when attending liao. Cause now attending as an old boy/ cadet officer, so it is of different status lah. You will see the stuff that you did as a cadet once and sometimes it really brings back memories.

I left Pulau Ubin on the second day of camp, cause Sunday got to go church. Sunday, went to church as usual. Then after everything, went over to Hougang Mall. Sort of “wasted” time there until 3pm then went home. Haha. We had fun lah, going around inside and outside of Hougang Mall, laughing and playing. And also, again we went to our favorite eat place, Café Cartel. Spent quite some time inside there also. I think we played quite a lot inside also. Haha. Before we left, went to buy Uncle Sam’s birthday present. Think so long for what to buy, finally decided on pen. Those that you use for work de. We buy got brand de ok, Parker sia. Haha. Then we went down to the second level to do carving on it. I would say, it was a fun day. LOL.

The next three days, was Basic PDS Course. It has really been some time since I thought PDS le, so I also need time to refresh on all my drills. I was a bit luckily during the course, I got only 4 trainees under me while the HCI trainers got 11 cadets each under them. But my trainees were all cadet officers. I tell you, it is really difficult to teach. I want to go down hard, but just very difficult for me to do it. They kept on playing and stuff, I don’t know if they really learn anything from the 3 days. I seriously don’t know what to say about them, they really throw my face to the core lah. The test that we had for the last day, I really just wanted to find a hole and hide my head. Haix.

But I think the cadets, they really put in a lot of effort. I can see from the test, although I never take them personally for the course itself. Some of their drills are really superb. But on another hand, I got to fail cadets. I really don’t want to fail them, but there isn’t any way for me to help them pass. I really crack my head but still to no avail. The whole course, I would say was sort of a success. Only that logistics and administration part for the first day.

Ok, let me blog a bit about yesterday. After piano lesson, went to East Coast Park to meet up with Secondary School friends. Really been some time since I see them le. We really had a lot of fun. Haha. Played the whole night through, most of us never sleep at all. I think of all the BBQs I went to, this is the one where I had the most fun. I laugh until my six pecs also come out lah. We were playing the thumb game for like a few rounds and the bottom line is, Montfort people always win SKY. Haha. I very lazy to blog about the whole event lah, I’m sure Clive or someone else who was there will blog about it. Haha. So look out in their blogs.

I shall stop here. Want to read my post again? Haha. I think must wait for another month bah. Really lazy to blog also.

2009-05-30T22:35:00.000+08:00

Long time never blog already, I think the place here is getting rather dusty. Haha.

I think I never blog not because of no time, but rather because I don’t know what to type when I open up blogger, like seriously. I tried it like 2 weeks ago, I open up blogger and type. In the end, I couldn’t even type 1 paragraph. LOL. I think my brain a bit not good liao.

Been quite “busy” these few weeks. Although there are quite a lot of things on for lessons and studies, but I like never touch anything. Ok, not say never touch anything, I just finish presentation for Math 1. That one I think was a totally flop on my side. When I started to teach the graph, I totally just forgot how the graph work and I just stunned there. Luckily it is not graded and my teacher just asked me to carry on. Really damn malu when I was up there, whole class looking at me and I cannot answer.

I seriously think I need to start hitting the books (or should I say notes) soon. Holidays are coming, which one hand is a good thing but on the other hand, it is not. It just means that MST is also nearing. And there are a lot of things which I haven’t even started to read up on. And the lectures are driving me crazy man. Maybe it is cause I’m sort of slow in my studies. I really can feel the pressure. In a class where people come from JCs, where people are single digit scorers and etc… The pace of them doing work in class is like, I am most of the time the slowest to finish work. Stressful lor.

That’s mostly about school work. Let’s see what activities have I done for the past month or so. I cannot remember also. LOL. But I just went cycling with Selene yesterday lah. I tell you, the trip really almost killed me man. I went for NAPHA test on both Wednesday and Thursday. And my legs and body is still aching everywhere. Then yesterday some more go for so long cycle. LOL. We started off in ECP, then cycled all the way to Changi beach and back again. The whole trip took us about 2 hour 15 minutes. My whole body was still aching lah, then now even my butt also start already. The seat was really very uncomfortable. That’s why I don’t really like to cycle, one of the main reason is the seat. So small sia, don’t know how to fit such a big butt like mine.

And finally I got my NAPHA already. LOL. My first pass after so many years. I never once had a pass in my whole education life, from Primary 4 all the way till now. After started to train, then I got my first pass. Maybe I will too lazy last time. I will strive on to do better next time. I think not because of my NCC, I wouldn’t have spend so much time training and getting the score. Now is just for me to submit my promotion form and to go and get my letter of appointment which I never receive last year.

My coming week is quite crazy. I going to book in for Specialist course tomorrow night and going to pon school from Monday to Wednesday. Thursday got to go back school and do some tests for Math and Thermofluids. After that, Friday would be another day of lesson. In the evening, going to book in Montfort for Leaders’ Camp. All the way until Saturday, I will leave Pulau Ubin cause got to go church in Sunday. Then The following Monday, going to HCI for the Basic PDS course. I have been asked to take and teach the Cadet Officer trainees. I think it won’t be an easy job for me, cause I really long time never go back and teach le. I hope HCI that side got people to give me a refresher course before I start teaching man. LOL.

I think I will stop here now. I don’t know when will I be back to blog for the next time. Haha. I hope it will be soon lah.

2009-05-09T16:13:00.003+08:00

Time really flies, it is already the end of week 3 in school. I can't believe that I have already been in SP for 3 weeks man, 3 WEEKS!!. Haha.

I think I will just generalize everything that had happened during the past one month or so? I cannot remember things also lah, so I agar-agar type only.

School work is piling up higher and higher. Polytechnic life is like totally different from secondary school man. Everything has to be done on our own, no more spoon feeding by teachers. I got some chapters which teachers are not teaching and we are suppose to go and read up on ourselves to teach the class. Like damn LOL lah. I see the chapter that my group is doing, I don't even understand when i read from the book can. I don't know how to teach when the time comes sia.

There are also quite afew projects that have to be done. I seriously still need time to adjuct to polytechnic life man. Like everything is moving so fast all of a sudden. From 5 months holiday, then start school, the change is really quite big also.

I now also don't really have much time for NCC. I only go back to Montfort for normal trainings cause it is on Saturday. HQ events on weekdays, I cannot even find time to go down lah. I'm still considering wheather to skip school on the last week before holidays to go for specialist course a not. I really am going to miss out on a lot of things.

2009-04-16T19:58:00.002+08:00

Finally going to recover from my illness liao, so long le.

Hmm, what should I talk about? Many things seem to have happen over so long lah. First was camp FEAST, then was the Easter Triduum that I attended and sang for, then Montfort’s Affirmation Ceremony and the start of orientation this week. I think I should say a bit about this events one by one. Haha.

Firstly, Camp FEAST, not my first camp though, so it wasn’t much of a problem going through the things that got to be done the whole camp. I think everything was done pretty well. But as usual, the cadets really cannot listen to instructions. I also died talking to them. I even fell sick on the second day of camp. I fell ill with fever like during lunch on the second and last day. I didn’t report sick, cause I went solo due to my APC got to go back to school. I just push on lah, anyway a few more hours left then send them home le. After sending them back and changing out, I this time really gone. My whole body was damn hot lah, really fever start kicking in liao. I rested in Central office for awhile before my father came to fetch me home. For this camp, I think the only thing that I didn’t like was the arrangement of post bah. I cannot say anything more as there may be people who are reading. Maybe we can shuffle more so that more people can get a chance? This is just my suggestion.

Because of me falling sick, I stayed at home and rest for the next few days. Thursday went for Maundy Thursday mass, then Journey to the West with STAC people. Went to 4 churches in the west lah, and it was really an eye-opener. The churches were really cool, especially Church of St Mary of the Angels. The whole church look like a court room and the hanging Jesus on top was damn cool. I think that was the coolest church I have ever seen. Before that we went to Blessed Sacrament church and Holy Cross. We ended off with a walk through of the Stations of the Cross at St Joseph. The compound there was damn huge. I think if I don’t know the place, I will get lost walking inside. Haha.

Friday was Good Friday service, I tried my best to sing as I was still feeling unwell. Every few words I sing, I will start to cough. Damn irritating lah.

Saturday, here comes the big events. Morning went for Montfort’s Affirmation Ceremony. Whole thing was still quite ok, didn’t have much cock up. I think the only thing that cock up was the food. It came too late, so we got to like drag the ceremony during the start. Like when parents came in, just let them watch some SAF video. I was the emcee for the ceremony, I think I didn’t do a very good job lah. Cause partially I was sick, and I didn’t have any experience doing emcee at all. My first time on stage doing it. Haha. Left after awhile as I need to rest and get ready for Easter Vigil later.

I reach practice at night pretty late, cause got a dinner appointment before that. Suppose to reach at 8.30pm, but I only reach like after 9pm. Luckily when I reach, they haven’t started doing psalm yet. Sang I think one or two songs, then it was psalms. During practice, I try not to push so much as I need to sing on the altar without music later. Mass started off with a procession outside church, then move into church. The whole mass was very grand, especially the part when the organ started to play during Gloria. I think everybody was also high, sang damn loud and everything. We didn’t do ‘A Festive Alleluia’ as planned, cause I think communion was too short for so many songs. Ended quite late, about 12.30am like that. So we were like trying to get people home first, those who don’t have transport will take transport from those who have. In the end, Teresa, Laoren and I took Louise’s transport home. Reach her block downstairs already, Teresa’s Dad was already there. So in the end, I walk home with Laoren. She told me that out of the 3 psalms that was sang, mine was the loudest. I was like quite shock and also flattered. LOL. I was sick lah, how could I sound louder than Michael and Melvin. Haha. A bit not possible can. But nevermind, I think I myself sang well can already.

Sunday, I woke up late for mass again. It was because of the late night sleep lah. I was watching television some more. Haha. I was like watching until 2.30am before going to bed can. And morning got to wake up at 6.15am for mass. I woke up like at 6.45am. So I was rushing like mad at home and I left home in like 5 minutes lah. Haha. Met Laoren at the bus stop. I think it is either I’m late or she is early lor. Fancy meeting her in the morning. Haha. Reach church just nice 7am lah, started with warm ups and everything. And it was a normal typical Sunday. Sleep early for that night though, cause of orientation the next day.

Woke up on Monday morning and prepared to go to school. Sort of first day of school lah. Got to go for orientation program. I think the whole Monday program thing was damn lame, sat in the hall and listen to them talk and see performances by CCAs. Met up with my class after that, then went home. Got like 16 guys in my class and no girls at all. Wah, I think i’m predestined to stay in a single sex class for my whole life lor.

Tuesday when for SPICE training in school, then went home already. I tell you, really lame one. I was like talking on msn during the training lah. Haha. After that went to have lunch at KFC and pool at Moberly.

Today just went for flag day at Tiong Bahru. I think the whole thing was damn boring lah. I didn’t even manage to hit the quota of $30. I only manage to raise about $20, then the rest I got from my classmates who got more. For the morning session that I was collecting, I only did like 15 minutes, then went to the park to sit and slack. Then after brunch, wanted to chiong a bit lah but like nobody already. In the end, went back to SP earlier to play pool again. Haha. After that, met back up with my class to count the money that we collected.

I think that’s all for the activities already bah. I wrote too long already, like over 1000 words liao. Haha. I know cause I’m typing it in Microsoft Words. And one more thing, Jason should be coming back this Saturday liao. Let’s see what his experience is like at Tekong. Haha.

2009-04-03T21:19:00.001+08:00

Back from Bali and Camp STEEL.

I don’t think I want to describe much that I done in Bali, it will be too long already. The summarize form is on Jason’s blog, anybody wants to know anything can go and read from there.

The whole trip was still not that bad. The food there was quite good, that I got nothing to complain about. I think the only screw up we had there was the hotel. The stupid hotel didn’t have our reservation when we reach there. Just to cut the story short, we called the agent and they told us that we booked another Ida Hotel which was on the other side of Bali. Like damn shit lah. The address given on our receipt was this one, then we check the map on the receipt, it shows another place. So we weren’t wrong what. Cannot be you give us different address and expect us to go and find ourselves right. In the end, we went to stay in HardRock Hotel.

The shopping there was relatively cheap cause of the exchange rate. But if you intend to stay there for long, you cannot thing like that lah. You must think like how the local people think. You must look like, their 10000 note is our S$10 lah. Then, I think their notes there also too big already. I see the numbers, see until I blur, so many zeros behind. But one item, it can go up to like few hundred thousand. Haha. It sounds damn big lah, but it is not.

Now for some info on camp STEEL. I seriously think that the cadets cannot make it. Secondary 2 already, but they still act worst than Part As. I really don’t know what to do with them sia. Like as their PC, I cannot even control them. They don’t even listen to simple instructions like falling in. Everytime I want to get my strength, I will waste like 5-10 minutes asking them to fall in. I got one joker, before we dismiss them to bed already told them no slippers on the ground level. This joker put his slippers on the second floor, then walk down barefooted. I was like wth? Then ask him why, he said cause we told him no slippers on ground floor. Damn stupid lah. No slippers means must wear shoes what, idiot also can understand can.

At night I don’t know what happen, cause I sleep damn fast. Too tired already. Not like last time camp FEAST, still got stay up to check on the cadets. After our debrief, I straight away bathe, change and sleep liao. Oh and did I mention, I met up with quite a few ADC people there. Haha. Most of them from Air and West district de. People like Riley, Taufiq, Jayson and others.

Going to camp FEAST again next week, I think it will be my last camp le bah. School is starting in a week’s time. I think time is going to pass damn fast from now on lah.

2009-03-23T21:04:00.000+08:00

Alright, time for me to do abit of blogging.

Back from 4th Advance Drills Course last Thursday. I can say that it was the best course I every attended throughout my whole NCC route of 6 years. I really felt the bond and together-ness of my platoon during the course. Maybe we are all Cadet Officers, thats why we are more open to each other lah but still I think it was damn
good.

The first day, didn’t start off the day nice lah. Got scolded even before the registration. It was damn stupid, I don’t want to mention anything here. After that, we fall-in in platoon level. We were all quite serious at the start lah, because I think we didn’t know each other well yet. All the way till lunch, we were still quite distant from each other. I also cannot really remember when we started to open up.

Had lectures for the first day and not much of practical I would say. Learn how to do formation of squad. I knew abit of it lah, cause was thaught to me by my seniors when I was still a Part C cadet. Did just a short while of practice, then dinner and lights out liao. But before that, we had a short debrief with out platoon instructors then move on to planning for our graduation ceremony. This task was always given to Cadet Officers Trainee of every ADC to do.

Second day, started off with a big task thrown to me. I was choosen to be the Course IC in the morning, and I wasn’t inform about it like earlier. I was only told when the Course 2IC was looking for me. Damn LOL lah. I didn’t even prepare anything, no pen nor paper. I had to go up to the West people to ask them to lend me. But I think I did a reasonable job lah. Though I didn’t do well at the start, I still manage to pull through for the rest of the morning till lunch.

For the second day, I think the lesson that most intrest me was the marking of parade ground. SM taught us how to use the pace stick and did markings on the parade ground. Really learn a lot from his lesson. I didn’t know there was so many things to be done when planning a parade. Basically, the whole day after that was learning footdrills.

Third day, started off the day again with PT. I think the run wasn’t as bad as I thought before I joined the course. Running with all my platoon mates were quite fun. And I didn’t really feel tired after the run. The whole day after that was full advance drills. We learn sword drills, rifle drills and colours drills. The sword drills was really a new thing to me lah and it was interesting too. Now at least I know the proper way of doing drills with the sword. After lunch, we had our theory test. The test wasn’t really difficult or easy lah. Cause the answers were all the key points that SM mention during his lectures. So if we paid attention, we would be able to score full for the whole paper. But unfortunately for me, I only remembered the 2nd half of his lectures and cannot really bring to my mind what was taught during the first and second day. In the end, I left quite a few blanks here and there lah. No choice mah, you don’t know means don’t know de.

Evening was dinner, debrief and planning again. But before all these, we had our pull-up test. I think I did my best liao lah. Manage to pull 4. Alot of us couldn’t complete, but we still cheered each other on. I think that was the time when you see the bonds of the whole platoon. Then during the planning, there were some arguments among us lah, but it was settled shortly after that.

Finally, the last day of the course. We were all very excited about it. Haha. Started to rain heavily in the morning, so PT was cancelled. YEAH!! Haha. We were all waiting for this rain to come and it only came on the last day. LOL. Had our Course AAR with SM then proceeded for course photo taking. The photo taking wasn’t very well done but I think it wans’t anybody’s fault, cause our course size was like 250? So it was difficult to get everyone in the picture lah. Had lunch after that, then was preparation for graduation liao. We were all like working hard for it lah. We did our part, doing the arrangement of chairs, taking care of cadets, training award winners, etc...

The time had finally came for the graduation ceremony. I should say that we all put in our best efforts for it liao. I can see the organizing people putting in a lot of hardwork too. The whole thing went on quite smoothly without much problems. The cadets had their donning of lanyards and then it marks the end of the whole course.
We all proceeded to the canteen for some light refreshments while some of us stayed back to clear up the MPH. After that, went to clear the bed sheets, pillow cases and blanket before having AAR with our instructors. We were awarded out badge at that time in section level. I think that was quite an emotional time for some of us, cause there were people who are close friends to us that failed due to certain reasons. But still we supported each other and walk out of the room together.
The time had finally came, the last dismissal. We asked the RSM to dismiss us, cause we had a special suprise for him. When the command Basu-RAI was given, we all shouted 1-check-1 CUT YOUR HAIR RSM!! Haha. After that, we taopok him on the ground. LOL. Damn funny.

Ok, that was for ADC. I now got to prepare for my trip next. Going to Bali tomorrow le, I don’t know what to bring sia. Haha. Blog again soon, byebye.

2009-03-07T17:16:00.003+08:00

I think the last thing that I blog about was CAMP FEAST? That happened like quite long ago le. Haha. Let me see if I can recall what happened after that. LOL.

On Thursday last week, I had my first IMT (as in as a Cadet Officer lah). LOL. It was quite easy to handle things lah. Cause this time was only a small number of cadets and is only single chamber* so the manpower needed to run the whole thing was quite small. I did detailing, which was sort of an easy job. When the cadets come in, I just need to ask them to sit in rows of 10 and fill up the score sheet. If my memory never fail me, we had about 89 cadets that came and out of them, there were 71 MARKSMAN!! Haha. I wasn't shock lah, cause they were using the SAR21. With a 1.5x scope at 100m, how could you miss the target. Haha. I think out of the events I helped out in HQ, this is considered one of the easiest.

After IMT that day, I went back to Montfort cause they are having investiture. Although I was late, I managed to talked to some people lah. I only arrived when most of the schools are already about to leave. LOL. The seniors had a talk with the EXCOs after the whole event had ended. There were many feedbacks give, nice ones and not nice ones. But I think it is best to keep it within ourselves. Problems can be solve if people are willing to listen to each other and compromise. But with the current situation now, I doubt any party will be able to give way.

Saturday, I had training in the morning. Very usual stuff that goes on lah. But that day, Wilson and Dominic came back. I was quite surprise lah. Like they both MIA for damn long time liao.

After training, Jason and I went for a Brain Storming session for the youth group that is currently running at Morning Star. Uncle Raymond had asked us to attend, so we just go lor. I think it was quite fruitful? There were a lot of things brought up lah. Maybe all these are posibilities.

We ended at 5pm and headed over to church for carwash. First time I helping out in this sia. It wasn't really tiring but instead, it was fun. Haha. Sorry Anthia for splashing water on you. LOL. I didn't know you were on the other side mah. Haha. it was fun indeed. But washing so many cars in just that 1 hour time, was quite a rushing thing also. When mass ended, we like just finish the last car can. Just in time. :)

Now comes to this week. I didn't do much for this week. Wanted to start running but the rain stopped me. I changed on to my PT kit and wanted to leave the house already, it started to rain so heavily. So no choice, I came back. LOL. The only time I had things on were Thursday, yesterday and today.

Thursday was really a headache for me, as in literally. Had IMT again, this time was M16 and double chamber**. We worked with about 6 poeple this time. I think it was the same number of people as the one last week. But this time, we had about 180 cadets, which was more than twice the previous group. I tell you, I was inside the chamber for 7 details, and my head almost exploded. Had to take care of the cadets nevermind, they don't even know what target they are shooting at. Ask them aim at the target below, they go and aim at the one where we are suppose to see where their shots land. In the end, so many of them failed. I think they never even put in the effort to come for this shoot lah. Ask them aim, they also just anyhow shoot. But there are also some who took this seriously and got themselves marksman.

Yesterday, went down to SP in the morning. I felt that it was quite dumb lah. I went all the way there, just to listen to a briefing which I can learn about eveything at home, for 40 minutes. Go all the way down there, listen to the stuff on PCEMS then leave liao. Damn sian. Came home after that, did nothing. Went own to HQ in the afternoon for briefing on ADC. Just a short one lah, the rules and stuff. All the standard things which you will hear in a pre-course briefing. After that went home liao.

Today went to Harbourfront at 0645hrs. Damn early can. Went to help out in the Milo TRYathlon event at Sentosa. Was raining, so I was doing my duty in the rain. My whole uniform was like soaked to my skin lah. But what can I do, my duty what.

*10 lanes
**20 lanes

2009-02-25T23:30:00.002+08:00

Just came back from my first camp as a Cadet Officer. I tell you, really can die. The cadets will keep anybody taking them can. Now i understand what teachers got to go through to handle students.

The cadets were all secondary one, going through their first NCC camp in HQ. They didn't know anything at all, no clues to what they are going to expect and the rules & regulations. Teaching and handling them is no joke, seriously. I scolded them like don't know how many times but they still go back to their old ways. I also don't know what to do with them. Ask them to do something, it took them like double the time that they are suppose to complete. Really can die man.

Too bad for them in the end, both of the days, the sky turned dark and started to rain. CAT 1 for both days. But it also wasn't very good for us PCs. We got to find programmes to entertain them, which was like quite difficult for me. I'm not very good with impromtu things de, especially asking me to entertain people. In the end, most of the time we settled for TCS (talk cock session). I usually don't talk much de lah, is my friends and offiicers who do all the talking.

First time doing camp, wasn't as easy as I thought. But I can say it was a good experience. Things that I took for granted as an cadet is now the job of mine. I didn't know that I got to take care and do so many things. But I think I did quite ok lah, for my first time. I admit that I commited a lot of mistakes (and I mean A LOT), but I guess this is how we learn bah. Next time, I will do a better job and not commit the same mistakes again.

NEXT STOP : SPECIALIST COURSE.

2009-02-18T08:50:00.007+08:00

Feelings

Feelings, nothing more than feelings,
Trying to forget my feelings of love.
Teardrops rolling down on my face,
Trying to forget my feelings of love.

Feelings, for all my life I'll feel it.
I wish I've never met you, girl;
You'll never come again.

Feelings, wo-o-o feelings,
Wo-o-o, feel you again in my arms.

Feelings, feelings Like I've never lost you
And feelings like I've never
Have you again in my heart.

Feelings, for all my life I'll feel it.
I wish I've never met you, girl;
You'll never come again.

Feelings, feelings like I've Never lost you
And feelings like I've never have you
Again in my life.

Feelings, wo-o-o feelings,
Wo-o-o, feelings again in my arms.
Feelings...

2009-02-18T08:28:00.006+08:00

Valentine's Day had already pass. The hot topic of last week. LOL. Everyone will be like asking if you have gone out on a date and stuff. As usual, I don't have lah. Only that day, Daryl, Eunice and Jason came over to my house in the afternoon to chill out.

Time is passing so fast when you are doing nothing. Look at your calendar, it is already like towards the end of February. Next week is already the last week. I can't believe it man, means school is going to like start in another 1.5months time?

I guess I didn't really accomplish much during these few months of holiday. The only thing I did was only going to the gym and practically, thats all. And even going to the gym, there isn't much difference made to my body. Damn sian can. I still need to buck up on my running and pull ups. And i'm only left with 3 months the most?

Anyway, went for SAR21 Trainfire on Monday. I think I really suck at teaching. I was like one of the first to start teaching, but it turns out that I finish the last. My technical handling of the weapon really suck also lah. I thought I can remember but when I stand infront of the cadets, I just forget the things that should be taught to them. This Friday going to range, hope I will do better than the trainfire bah.

It is just this feeling that I have inside me, indescribable to many and myself. It happens everytime when I turn on my computer, it just does.

2009-02-13T20:30:00.003+08:00

Why am I feeling this way?
I thought I have already convince myself about this?
Why is this still coming back?
Or is it something new?

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day. No programmes on though. Actually, every year also got nothing on de lah. I will come online, then see who is online, and ask them why aren't they out. LOL. Seems quite contradicting lah, cause I ask them why they are online, but I myself also. Haha.

I just don't feel good these few days. Quite sian at home. Maybe is cause I got too much time to think of funny stuff. Somethings are really not what I expected it to be. Maybe I got different expectations bah.

All the best...

2009-02-12T08:50:00.002+08:00

Didn't do much for the past week I would say. Was just slacking at home the whole days through. Went abit of gym here and there lah. Fell down and hurt my knee, so didn't manage to do on any running. I'm damn scared that I cannot get my NAPHA before June sia. If cannot get, means bye bye to my C/OFFR rank.

There was another class chalet last week, at changi there. This time the place was bigger or should I say, DAMN BIG. Got like 4 rooms and each room is like 2 times my house living room? LOL. I reached there about 6pm? I cancelled my piano lesson specially to go sia. Reach there, sit in the dinning area and talk to some of them for awhile, since also haven't prepare the BBQ stuff mah. After the chat, we went out to start the fire and BBQ. So many of us, and we use like 1 hour to start fire? Like we damn useless lah. Haha. Still got uniform group de there some more. After ther fire started, BBQ-ed abit, then went into the dinner area again. Didn't get to eat much lah, I think got not enough food. 8kg of chicken to feed almost 30 people or even more than that? I left at about 10pm, didn't want to stay over.

Last Sunday, went out to watch movie with Eunice, Rena, Daryl and Jason. Suppose to be because of Louise thats why we go out de, in the end, she said she don't need go liao. But now become I have to buy things, so we still went lah. First stop was beach road, bought all the stuff that I need to buy and it comes out to a grand total of $166.50. Thats a lot of money can. But nevermind lah, can claim. Haha. Then was deciding wheather to go Vivocity or Plaza Singapura. Since Vivocity is just one straight bus there, we went there lah. A lot of people there on Sunday sia, but luckily we got seats for the show. When we reached the queue-ing area, there was like a lot of people lah and I scared we couldn't get tickets. In the end, I think most of the people infront watch the benjamin buttons that show. We got 1 hour before the show start, so we went to the basement to get some snacks.

The movie wasn't fantastic lah. Although I like the jokes, they were quite funny. Haha. Now I understand why it was rated NC16. The whole show was just like sexual reference all the way lor, nothing PG at all de. The plot was quite expected also. I think out of 5, I will only give a 2? Didn't really meet my expectations lah.

After that, went to Hougang Mall where Rena and Euncie had Long John Silver. Jason went off to help Melvin play for his mass. So only left the 4 of us. Daryl and I didn't eat, cause we were suppose to meet up with Selene afterwards for some teochew dinner thing. Before we went to Long John, the 4 of us were like idiots at the "rooftop" can. We were waving to Louise from across the road and she die die also don't want to open her windows. Like damn lame lah, ask you open, just open lor. At least we know it is you mah.

After eating and stuff, Rena and Eunice went to take bus while Daryl and I walked back to church. The teochew dinner thing at Selene's house there was like rubbish lah. Ask you go watch opera and the food is only 1 plate of beehoon with curry vegetable and some fried stuff. I thought it will be some porridge where we self service de. Didn't expect it to be this. We didn't stay for the show lah, after eating only we left liao. Damn tired after the whole day out lah.

2009-02-05T20:13:00.005+08:00

I'm very lazy to blog nowadays, but I guess I got to type something bah. Maybe I can blog abit about the STAC 35th Anniversary that has just passed last Saturday.

I have already update photos on the SJB blog lah, but I think I will upload 1 or 2 here also. Haha. Friday, Jason and I went to Selene's house to help out with the cake. Actually, only Selene and I doing lah, cause by then Jason come, we already finish doing liao. Left her house at about 10pm, cause the ice-cream didn't seem to freeze fast enough for us to do at the night itself.

Saturday morning, Jason and I went over to do the cake. In the end, we redo everything from scratch. After that went to Rena's house earlier to play. SORRY EUNICE to make u wait so long. Played a lot of things here and there. Went to pick up many people too. Haha. We (Jason and I) we alsoasked to play piano for her parents' guests. LOL. After that, because I don't have the things that we needed for the slideshow, I went home to get it. Reached back Rena's house again at 5pm. Touch up the slideshow show until about 6pm, then went down to the function room liao. Set up and stuff, then we started with all our programmes.

I really want to thank everybody who made this event a success. Thanks Rena for offering her place too. :)

2009-01-29T10:08:00.002+08:00

Ok, since Chinese New Year is sort of officially over, cause people are going back to work or to school, I shall blog abit about it. Haha.

Monday, the whole day was family visiting, always as usual lah. Morning went for mass, I think we always do the same mass every year? Nothing special lah, it is just like normal Sunday, go and sing only lor. After that, proceeded to like around Singapore, visiting all my older generation of relatives. Went to 5 houses I think, then ended off at my father's god-parents' place for dinner.

Tuesday, morning went to Mrs Ng's place. Very long time I never see her le, I should find sometime to go down and visit her these few days. Haha. She taught me tuition from Primary 2 if i'm not wrong. Haha. Very nice teacher. Hmm, wanted to visit Sis Geraldine but I think she wasn't at the formation house. So in the end, we headed home cause I still got some time before going to Louise's house.

Left my house at 1.50pm, walked over, just nice 2pm lor. Nobody was there, except Marilyn and Louise's Friends. I wanted to make new friends lah, but they like so quiet then they don't seem to want to join us in the talking. LOL. As time passes, the people started to arrive. Anthia and Rena came first, followed by Jason and Mr Bong. (Correct me if I got the wrong order) Talked crap in the living room first lah, then Jason started to play piano, so we all crowed around the piano. Each of us must play something lah, so all of us very sporting de, except Louise lor. We must keep on asking and asking, then she will play. Her friend I think also quite sporting de, take out handpohone only, start to play liao.

We went into Louise's room after all the piano playing and continued to crap. I also cannot remember exactly what were we talking about. But I guess was the same old rubbish that we usually CRAP about lor. Haha. We had dinner at around 6.30pm? Before we started eating, Marilyn left liao. Lol. Got so much food can, somemore her mom oreder KFC. I only ate the chicken from KFC, cause all her food got celery which I seriously hate man. In the end, 2 big pot of spaghetti sause and spaghetti noodles of cause and 2 container of friend rice were left. I didn't really touch any of those, thats why got so much left. Haha.

After dinner, Louise's friend and Jason left. So now, it was only left with Louise, Anthia, Rena, Daryl and me. Haha. Crap somemore in her room until 9pm. I manage to understand what the Angel and Mortal thing is about liao. Walao eh, like damn lame lah. I was still thinking like, is it because of last time we play at the STAC retreat that one. LOL. Like so long ago liao. Haha. Thats all for Louise's house.

Yesterday, I went to my mom's boss's house. Went to look around the house again, cause I forgotten liao. I think the place like really damn big lah. There is like 2 dinning area can, first floor and second floor. Both floors also can cook de lor. Haha. The house is just big lah, I would say. After that, rushed down to Eunice's house, cause at 12.45pm, I was still at Loyang can. Haha. Then I keep on forgetting what block she stay in, I thought it was 921 the I look around all the blocks, all is 980+ de leh. In the end, I called her again, it was suppose to be 981. Haha.

I wasn't the first to arrive lah, Anthia was at the lift landing waiting for me liao. Sorry Anthia, I got lost on my way there. Haha. Called Eunice and she like don't want to tell me her unit number like that. I also don't know why lor. In the end, we took a lift up to her floor, then she brought us to her house. How lame is that right? Haha. The time there was like quite bored lah, I also don't have anything to crap about. Watched some kite runner show at first, in the end, I found it quite boring, so I off-ed it. LOL. But ok lah, we went down to find Daryl after I off-ed the show. At least got something to do lah. That idiot hor, don't know where her go sia. Say he is at one block, asked him to wait there and we went there to look for him, then called him, he say he reached Eunice's block liao. Like what the hell lah, ask you to wait, you don't move. Make us walk so far. Haha.

Went up to Eunice place again. We started crapping and watched High School Musical. I guess we were all quite bored lah. Haha. But some of the songs quite nice de lor. I think the CD got problem lah, so we only watch until the singing "Stick to the Status Quo" that part, then we off liao. Daryl and I were feeling abit hungry, so we went down to the coffeeshop to eat. Mom was very generous lor, paid for our lunch and drinks can. I really didn't expect it lah. After that, Louise came. We sent Anthia off, as she going to the Night Safari with her friends. Then met Rena on the same bus as Anthia board. Went back to Eunice place AGAIN, eat, play, crap and watch TV. We went home at 7.30pm I think. The whole time at Eunice's house, I was trying to take her cute cute photos lah, but she don't allow me to. I tell you, sure will look damn nice de lor. Haha.

Thats all for my CNY this year I think. I didn't even go back to school to visit my teachers. LOL.

2009-01-25T22:04:00.004+08:00

It is Chinese New Year again!! Once every year and it seems that time is passing faster and faster. It felt like yesterday that I just started my Secondary 5. Haha.

Had Reunion dinner for like 3 times? Haha. Friday, my whole family (this includes my aunty and uncle) went to SIA Sports Club. The food there was quite shiok, I was damn full in the end. We had lots of food can, two tables. Adults took one, then the childen another. I think the fish was the best of all, fried Red Tilapia. The price there was quite reasonable too, it is worth going there to eat again. But the place seems abit far lah, no transport in.

Then last night was eating with my brother's god-parents. The food wasn't bad lah, only that because it is in a coffeeshop, the space there was limited. I was so uncomfortable can, cannot even sit properly. Then the people at the coffeeshop wasn't considerate too. Smoking in a non-smoking area, don't have consideration for people sitting at the table next to them, etc... Police came too, cause I think there was a molest case, then the girl called police. The first time I see such things sia. Haha.

Just finished reunion dinner at home. The preparation can kill lah. Started off like yesterday morning, cause got to go to the market to get the ingredients. The price at the market was crazy man. I think it is increased by don't know how many percent lah. LOL. Then the day until today is like preparation. So much to do man, but I didn't help out much. My mom was the one doing most of the things. Had steamboat just now, also quite full. I think these few days like that eat, my running on Thursday like no use already.

I just realise on Thursday that after I finish running, I sing better. Next time maybe I should try running before I go to mass on Sunday. Haha.

Many thanks to the STAC people for getting me my birthday present. Although the price tag is still there, but nevermind lah. Haha. It is the thought that counts. I really love it. Give me another 2 years, I will become like the guy on the book cover. HAHA.